Depression - has it taken you to the end?

[white knight]

Not a topic to beat around the bush. Yeh, suicidal thoughts or plans. How many of us sufferers of depression have been there?

A statistic that blew me away was average suicides in Australia. About 2200-2500. Males are four times more likely to than females. Now a days thats more than the national road toll.

What can we do to secure our own future so we dont go down that path because of the numbers that do go all the way many are suffering depression. Our demons take their toll on our well being, our daily life and we send our family and friends packing even though it isnt intended, we do it anyway. We have limited control and that brings me to a point, an important point for the depressed contemplating the end of your life. To think outside the square for a few minutes before you continue on. Disconnect with your contemplated journey for a few minutes to think of the following.

1.Think of your loved ones, the sadness and grief they will experience. So sad

2.Think about an immediate change of environment

3.Seek help. You might be thinking you are tired of seeking help but do it! Again and again you might need help but thats the way it is.

Many of us know the internal pain, the numbness, the worthlessness, the feeling of tears rolling but we dont know why. Like anything in life that is negative and uncontrollable there is only two ways to silence those demons  One is the selfish way and I wont consider it a fair option for your loved ones. the other is to reverse it. How do we reverse suicidal thoughts?

Change of environment? It can help. Walk away from that terrible direction. Walk anywhere. If you are that desperate then try anything life can offer so you survive. A day, a week, a month later having moved from your home, sort a job in the outback, had a holiday, toured around etc you would look back and realise that pathway was not a good plan. It was selfish and it was defeating. You'll feel proud you survived. An accomplishment. You beat it, you squashed those demons, not fully but you turned around from that path of destruction.

There have been threads here on this forum that have touched me. The one that totally transformed my thinking was "think b4 you act"  google it with the words "beyond blue my life has changed because of 1 decision horribly wrong". That poster helped me too even though my thoughts of suicide have diminished

If you are heading towards that direction consider loved ones. Realise your feeling of despair are temporary. Do a "U" turn.

Tony WK

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