Hi wolfspirit556,
Welcome to the forum. It is great to see you reaching out here as this can be a really difficult step to take especially when you are struggling. Having these feelings that you describe can be really difficult and overwhelming. I am sorry to hear that you are going through such a tough time right now. As Swan13 has said, you are not alone. The forum is a really supportive place to get some advise about your symptoms. Having feelings of low mood is common and there are many different ways you can start to feel good again.
A common strategy to help with depression often starts with talking with a health professional about your symptoms. Sometimes this can start by sharing your experience with a person you trust and asking for help. Another option would be to visit with a Doctor or a counsellor. Is there anyone you feel you can trust that you could talk with such as a counsellor or Doctor, or a friend?
If you are struggling tonight, don't hesitate to pick up the phone and call the Beyond Blue support line on 1300 22 4636 as sometimes even having a quick chat to someone can really make a really big difference. If you are not comfortable talking with anyone just now, keep us posted on the forum of how you are going and what you are experiencing so we can get a better understanding of what supports might suit you best.
Wishing you the best possible outcome,
Nurse Jenn
