Hi to all who may pass bye.l have another similar thread but it wound up
full of break up details mainly and l just need to escape that a bit of
late and talk about the new now.But yeah, earlier a divorce after 22yrs,
5yrs later somebody new that sad...
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Hi to all who may pass bye.l have another similar thread but it wound up
full of break up details mainly and l just need to escape that a bit of
late and talk about the new now.But yeah, earlier a divorce after 22yrs,
5yrs later somebody new that sadly 5yrs later again now and it hasn't
worked out.but unfortunately isn't only part of things but has changed
everything and l just feel all over the shop and very down, v down with
life down, plans and with that not working out to.The relationship was
looking touch and go quiet awhile earlier and so l've kind of been
living with two plans in life last couple of yrs for the future. One
with us and one without.So here l am , to the one without bc l need to
leave this property later this yr, it's just something l've known l've
needed to do a long time now and if l don't do it soon l might never
will. l need to start somewhere else fresh.If that relationship worked
out we might have even stayed, as couple it's quite nice here. But as a
single, without getting into it, there's just not much future and l've
always thought once my d was grown up which she is now, l'd move on. l
don't want another place or to bother with more property anytime soon
atm though , so one idea is to grab a caravan and go for a wander and
just live in that for awhile. l so much need to just minimise right
right down for a bit, for a rest , for a to hell with it all for
awhile.l'm later 50s now and l'd be able to survive without work for
while living cheaply. Thing is well the break up first up all, so
disappointed it hasn't worked out especially at this stage and we'd both
put soooo much into it and hoped it'd be our last and our future. Not to
mention all the other emotions.So there's that but then my new plans
now, and just life.l just don't know how or what to think or feel about
anything future right now.No friends here, not one in 8yrs here, one of
the big reasons it's just best now to move on , but so no one to talk
anything over with. Brother was 20mins over but he's moved down to his
gf's place. My d comes and goes and that's beautiful of cause but l
can't lay all this on her although she does know everything been goin
on.She'll be moving to herself v soon to. l'm still working a bit atm
and also getting out and about plus getting plenty of kayaking in my go
to for all but nonehteless, things just feel all messed up and confusing
, daunting. So many moves through life, one reason l don't want more
property right now. Came here to be close to my d till she grew up and
if l liked it l'd stay later if not move on. ln many ways l'm tired of
all though and in ways just wish l could just stop life right here and
do no more, just live.Funny though, talked a little about my plan to my
brothers , just the once, l won't see either of those 2 again yrs now
likely but they're full of envy both would love to be that free again so
l suppose l should be grateful. But ldk, l feel confused and v v low
plus another on top of all, loll is due and hitting right now. Mine
comes every 4 or 5mths unfortunately and it's arrived once again. l
don't take anything l just try to keep moving so to speak just gentler
than usual. Feel like l don't know anything any more.rx
How do I talk to my doctor?
