Anyone here with depression/anxiety that holds a full time job

[Guest_9870]

I have posted about jobs and whats best for us that suffer mentally before and i have been given some valuable advice from lots of you.
I just have a few more questions and that is, anyone on here hold a full time job and suffer mentally, what jobs are they, how do you cope etc?

I had been given advice to have 2 jobs and that is going okay although i still get bad anxiety on the days i work as the bosses are rude and cause drama. I try to keep away from it as much as i can.

Although this is okay for now, theres no security as they are casual, and i feel like i am not getting anywhere.

I want a career and all i can think of is jobs that are helping people, but i know that nursing and jobs like that will be too much for me.

I dont even know if i can hold a full time job, i have tried multiple times and just end up not coming to work anymore.

Any experiences you guys have that are work related please share what worked for you.

[Marie12]

I am holding a full time job...barely...now after 25 years....my depression and impatience with bosses and authority (I also have family problems) has run out...and I recently lost my temper with the boss when she became rude and insistent ...I felt sick.... and have refused to go into meetings with higher authorities about the issue even after threats of disciplinary action because when I think I have to sit down opposite another boss again my heart races and I feel sick....I would rather be fired. I can't even stand the thought of going back to a doctor for help (i have in the past and it is like talking to a brick wall and I feel too self-aware) . I only feel well when I think about distractions like the possibility of running away from everything!

[Guest_9870]

Hello Norman and welcome to beyond blue i hope you find it as welcoming and supportive as i do. Thank you kindly for taking the time of day to reply to my post and excellent advice and encouraging words. I feel very supported on here, everyone is kind and understanding, and although i still battle everyday to keep going, posting and relating to you all on here, hearing everyones experiences and what worked for them and ideas to help on certain situations like this, has helped me so much.

I was the same when i was a kid so i can relate to that, i knew something was up when i was kid but i couldn't understand what was going on with me, but i was the outcast and i never felt happy from what i can remember, but then when i got to be a teenager, i was definitely aware, especially made it worse being bullied and domestic violence.

Took me a while to open up to anyone, i mostly open up here though because its much easier. As you said, its better to vent and let it out then keep it in. Im glad most us found a place to do that on here.

I am so thankful for this forum.

i unfortunately now constantly having panic attacks about whether or not to try again full time, and take this position i have been offered in childcare. Its causing me a lot of grief atm i just want to rest. I wish i knew the answers. Also besides that all the scary anxiety ridden thoughts that keep coming to me about everything in life that take over me that i am trying to fight myself from thinking constantly.

its exhausting as you could imagine.

Anyway i do believe your valuable advice. One day at a time, and small tasks as they build into big things.

Thankyou again for your response and all the best to you 🙂

[Guest_9870]

Hello Marie, I am so sorry to hear you're going through that. But i must say, 25 years, that is an amazing achievement and you should be so proud.

I know how you feel about the " authority figures" especially the rude and " power tripping kind"

I have had some mean ones in my past.
What i have found worked for that for me is to forget their authority. As hard as that sounds, i redirected my thoughts when i got anxiety from them to "they are just like me" and just a positive thought for every thought of what could go wrong because of them, it helped me to get by being around them. In the end i blocked out anything harsh or bossy comments from them...I wish you the best of luck Marie, you are so important and don't deserve to suffer in silence.

[Juliet_84]

Hi Angie,

I have suffered from depression for most of my adult life and have worked full-time for all of this time. Sometimes it's definitely hard and other times it's easier. I actually find working in a profession/career to be much easier than when I was working in casual positions as I was always treated like dirt, but here I'm surrounded by intelligent, compassionate people who are more understanding. What I'm trying to say is that anxiety can make you think that things will always work out for the worst, or you won't be able to do things because of your anxiety, but that's rarely the case, and if it doesn't work out, there's always options. I once quit a job I hated, just walked out, because life was too short to be miserable, and I ended up in something much better. You just keep going until you find something better 🙂