anniexty or Depression

[tim41]

Hi, I'm posting this because I think I have depression rather than GAD that my psychologist diagnosed a few weeks ago, last night I was in a shipping center buy a b'day present for my girlfriend and I just broke down I keep breaking down for no known reason and cant stop crying when I do, is this normal form of depression ?, I have been so down of late and I cant seem to sleep at nights which is not helping either, my mind goes into overdrive, I went to the doctors this morning and he has prescribed another type of anti-depressant, I took some for about 1 month 2 months ago but stopped them as I felt they did not agree with me, the doctor has stated that if I don't get better in time I may need to be admitted to hospital with depression, I'm really down now and I'm find it hard to get the energy to go on, sorry if this is negative thread but its just how I feel, helpless and in a very dark place at the minute, thanks in advance for any works of strength you can give me through this hard time

[Cornstarch]

It's not a negative post.

Crying all the time certainly can be a symptom of depression.

It may be nothing more than a medical condition that needs medical care.

Or it could be very complex.

Complex personal life stuff that is keeping you up at night and snowballing into tears. Maybe you're miserable, maybe you have been stressed out of your brain for years. I guess only you know.

If you're a private person I hope you have a GP or clinical psychologist or psychiatrist that is warm and engaging to discuss it in privacy.

Regardless your confidence has taken a hit. Your second guessing yourself. When your confidence is low and with all things mental health anyway, you have to consult the experts. Don't let your friends/family/partner/pets/boss narcissistic neighbour etc diagnose you. I was told that I would 'heal' and essentially that means that in their eyes, 'I just wasn't trying hard enough', or that I was just stupid, and I should have recognised that I was suffering from what they are suffering from. Silly gullible me.

From memory your posts have only detailed your 'symptoms', you haven't detailed anything of your home life and how this may be exacerbating them. I only say this because I think you should probably sleep at a mates place or with family tonight if you live alone. But from memory you haven't slept in days have you? I ended up in emergency after 10 days of not very much sleep at all. I have PTSD and it felt like I was hallucinating. I kid you not. It was awful.

I had terrible reactions to AD's as well. It was just horrific.

Your confidence sounds really down. You need caring people around you. I'm sure you're very capable.

Could you call your GP ASAP?

I got stuck on a long weekend, didn't time my meltdown very well.

If you overheard a couple talking in a restaurant they way you are talking to yourself right now in your own head, you'd call the police! Have some mercy.

Go easy on yourself buddy.

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[Kazzl]

Hi Tim, welcome to the forum mate. I'm sorry to hear you're so low at the moment, and well done for reaching out for help.

I recognise a lot of the things you describe - crying for no apparent reason, not sleeping, racing mind, no energy. For me sometimes it's like my mind won't stay still and my body won't move.

I agree with Corny mate, you really need to see your doctor again, and describe what's happening. I've found with some doctors that once you're on antidepressants they think that's it - you have depression - and they focus just on the dosage or type of drug and don't necessarily dig deeper into what you're actually experiencing.

So make sure you tell your doctor everything that's going on - including the racing mind, sleeplessness etc, not just the feeling down and crying. And, if there have been things in the past that disturbed you - eg suicidal ideation, prolonged feelings of worthlessness, extreme periods of energy or anger, being up and down rapidly, etc, tell them that too. Often we only talk to our doctor about what's happening right now and don't mention experiences from the past that might help them understand. Make some notes and take them with you if that will help.

Read up as much as you can - there's good resources on the main BB site. Knowledge is our best friend, and it enables you to have an informed discussion with your doc and, in a sense, take more control of your own treatment.

You might also want to ask your doc about a mental health plan - that allows you to see a psychologist at a reduced cost under Medicare, for six to 10 visits. Many people have found that is a good way forward for them.

I hope that's helpful Tim, and it would be really good if you want to come back and talk a bit more.

Best wishes

Kaz

[IceT]

Hi Tim41,

I have suffered from depression and anxiety for many years, so it could be that you also suffer from both. It is unfortunately a cocktail that we'd rather not have, but the laws of chance handed them to us 😞

I tried with different types of antidepressants, it was trials and errors until I eventually got a suitable one. I guess you will have to do the same until you find an antidepressant that works for you.

Apart from going to psychiatrist, I also go to a clinical psychologist as I believe medication alone will not solve the issues. I also turned to Christianity to help overcome my depression and anxiety disorder, learning more about God and His promises. During my dark hours, I read this book "God's answers to life's difficult questions" by Rick Warren. It helped me get through my difficult times.

I know what you're going through and you're not alone. I find that life is so difficult to live, and sometimes feel why I was born into this world in the first place. I also occasionally think of rather being dead than living with depression and anxiety. What people don't understand about my situation, they all think I have a very good life with no financial issues, which is true from the outset.. But they don't know that I'm hurting inside.

hang in there, Tim41. Don't despair. Try to get help from psychologist, close family and friends..and a new medication from your dr. 

take care and all the best.