All the help I can get

[Just_Lost]

Been low for a long time I think.Bought up 7 children who are my rocks.Hubby is Fifo worker 10 years ongoing.Have always held it together somehow but now I'm crumbling.i feel so lost and confused about everything these days.cannot sleep, cannot eat.Concentrating on anything is very difficult.I cry a lot.Go for days without even speaking sometimes when I'm home alone,which is a lot .i have never felt so helpless to help myself.my husband does not understand at all why I'm always blue.he is a very social person. My stomach churns constantly and I feel nervous most of the time. Some days I feel like I've no reason to be here really, though I know I do.My only constant is my daily work. routinely day in day out just do don't have to think because thinking is just to hard right now because it's all such a mess.im about to see a Doctor this Friday prompted by a friend.Im hoping it's a start on the right track because this black hole is consuming my every waking minute leaving me exhausted, vague and detached .I feel at this point that there is no hope really ....so please please assure me I can overcome this demon and beat it and begin to live again....please.

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[Just_Lost]

Hi Mary,Geoff, Grateful and Mrs Dools,

Firstly want to thank each and everyone of you for caring and guiding me, it means a great deal to know others are out there 🙂

My doctors appointment went well I think.

She was very attentive and listened which was great.

Clinical depression & Anxiety was her opinion, but she is doing a full blood screen to make sure there is no underlying issues ie: thyroid and such.

I go back for a double appointment to discuss Medication and to organise Counselling.

I have spoken to my husband on the phone as he is away at work and he has said he will be there for me and support me if he can, which is fantastic as I really was dreading telling him at all. Unfortunately FIFO Lives are counter productive and if you do not watch it you are living separate lives.I will arm him with the information I recive and let him access weather he is up for the task or not, but I am trying to remain positive in the outcome.

My children have rallied and have just been around in the background all weekend.Not saying or doing just being there.They are my reason I am still here I believe and always will be.

One hour one day at a time is all I can manage right now but I am feeling as if I can overcome this with some management and support, something I have not felt in a long time.

Truly grateful Keron 🙂

[Just_Lost]

Hi Grateful,

I do have an empty nest now...but am very fortunate that my children , some or sometimes all of them are around most weekends which I am so grateful for.

I have 3 cats and 2 dogs lol...whom I love dearly and are great company.

I worked as well as bought up my children so am used to being busy, I have taken it upon myself to revamp my garden, re paint the house and force myself to keep busy, I also go for a run at least 4 times a week which helps me zone out listening to the music.

my husband is a very social upbeat character which is why I wanted to arm myself with information for him rather than try to offer my own explanation, because really I have not a lot of an idea what's going on at this time.

Thank you for your valuable input I really do appreciate any advice I can get.

Keron

[Chris_B]

Hi Just Lost,

You might want to take a look at some of the threads below - FIFO work does have unique pressures, and we do have FIFO workers and families posting in here from time to time. Feel free to revive any of these:

Withdrawing and sadness

How to care for myself while caring for depressed husband

Struggle street with partner

FIFO husband left wondering and confused all the time

[Just_Lost]

Thank You Chris 🙂

very insightful threads

[Doolhof]

Hi Keron,

Well done to you! Congratulation on making it to the Drs and for heading back again soon for a discussion on medication and counselling. That is great news!

It sounds like your children are still very much connected with you, plus you have cats and dogs, have time to go for a run and paint the house! Wow. I am exhausted just thinking of that lot! Ha. Ha.

My husband is certainly a lot more understanding of my issues now he has been doing a bit of reading about depression and stress. We all learn and take information in differently.

Maybe you can organise a special outing with your husband. It doesn't have to be an expensive enterprise. My husband I went to the beach for a walk and a chat. It was great. He did not have his mobile phone on him, we were away from the computer and the t.v. and we could just chat with each other, and also felt comfortable with the silence when it came.

Have you looked around your area to see if there are any clubs or groups you might like to join? One lady I know has started to invite a couple of friends over for craft and a chat once a week.

It really is wonderful to read of your amazing progress!

Cheers for now from Mrs. Dools

[Just_Lost]

Hi Guys,

Tomorrow morning I get to see the doctor and get some plan to put in place to help me on my way. Must say i am feeling hopeful yet apprehensive but keeping positive in the most part.

Its been a very up and down few weeks but I have made it through with the support of you all and will continue to do so im hoping.

my focus now...live in the moment and be positive.

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH 🙂

[White_Rose]

Hello Keron

Congratulations on your actions. It's so good to know you are on the way to healing. Sorry to leave you for a while but Mrs Dools, Geoff, Grateful and Chris have jumped in. They are all such fantastic people.

Yes, living in the moment is terrific and a good way to go. Looking too far ahead can discourage us from moving on because it seems so far to the end of the road. But as you said, one hour, one day at a time. After a while you will be able to look back and see how far you have come.

I am looking forward to learning how you went with the second session with your doctor.

Mary

[Doolhof]

Dear Keron,

Oh how wonderful to read you are feeling so much better! Thank you so much for sharing that with us all. It is so heart warming to know that you have been able to see your life differently and have positive thoughts.

I hope your Drs. appointment goes very well for you. All the best with that.

I'm sure that if you ask anyone here connected to Beyond Blue, they will tell you that they experience good and not so good times. We all have our ups and downs.

Once again, thank you so much for sharing your positiveness with us all. So many times we so easily share the negative, it is great to read the positive as well.

Cheers for now from Mrs. Dools