Last night 🌙 I joined this group. It was late and I was on my phone googling feeling singled out in life. I had a trigger and already tired, too much on my hands ✋️ and mind, deadlines to face, being distracted by facebook which did not please me too, mot being able to get up early to do what I can, starting later in the day, not feeling like walking my dog, wearing others projections, I had a golden cry, those tear drops were banked. I felt that I was so uncomfortable where I'm currently at and needed to release, as I said a trigger instigated this, but it felt good to release. I carry so much. I got to hold it all together to make not just my own ends meet, but everyone else's, alone. I. Busy, I got a life I've made for me and orders, lots is going well, but im not happy, and I am seeking within me again that spark, the light for me. I'm grateful for lots. The world's gone nuts. I truely don't know where I'm waking up to lately. I'm doing a PhD. I'm trying to focus, but there is so many things and once trying to have pieces of me. I know I'll get through. 😌 I ferl better a bit. I abandoned my study and sat with a friend and took up smoking 🚬 today, but I know I won't continue after a week, but I needed an outlet, sun and energy from earth. I'm not really feeling alone, I just can't relate to much of what's going on in the world, and top down stuff heavy in my own world, my mind can't focus, I'm becoming un diciplined on social media and nit exercising. Can any one relate. I wish I can get to my point easier. I guess I'm working it out whilst I'm writing. Thanks. I'm new by the way. Thanks everyone for your own shares.
