Not having the best day today. Anxiety and depression hit me hard

[Chloekat84]

Hello guys i just need to vent. I havent had a good day today which i dont know why as nothing has been out of the usual. I had a joint appointment with my cafhs nurses concerning my health and where to go from here here so slowly making progess, I see my doctor 2moro and i still havent heard from my psychiatrist. Im sick of waiting while i sit and wollow in self pity and just want to go into bed and not come out. It was also hard to not try to cry today as i was talking as well. Really not feeling myself today. Please just make this horrible adrenaline and depressed feeling go away! 😞 sorry to be so depressing guys just need to let it out 😞

[AGrace]

Hi Chloekat, 

Good on you for venting! Sometimes it can be really cathartic. I'm sorry to hear you've had a difficult day. I can only hope that right now you are tucked in bed asleep. I hope all goes well with your Dr tomorrow. I think re address the issue of waiting for the Psychiatrist appointment. You really shouldn't be waiting this long. Your other option would be to consider another Psychiatrist. 

We often feel like we shouldn't cry in front of strangers but I think your nurses would be very used to this.

Good luck with your appointment, let us know how you go. I hope Tuesday is a better day for you. 

AGrace

[geoff]

dear Chloekat, thanks for being able to vent back to us.

Hell it's never a pleasant way to live our lives struggling with depression, as it's always constant and always finds a way to cripple us.

Please there is no need to apologise for crying, especially when you are talking to either psych's or nurses checking to see how you are, and yes they are used to it and it comes as no surprise for them.

I agree with Amber that if I was you I would seek out another psychiatrist, although there maybe a waiting time which isn't what you want.

I know it maybe difficult for you to actually ring the psych, but perhaps someone else with a forceful voice could do this for you, telling them that you haven't heard from them but it's a desperate situation and could he/she squeeze you in.

Maybe your doctor could suggest another psych and they could possibly ring them for you, as this would carry a great deal of weight.

Please let us know how today has gone as it's important for us to hear back from you. L Geoff. x

[Chloekat84]

Hey guys how r u today? I made a mistake i actually see me doc 2moro not today thats my foretfullness. My Dr is in charge of contacting the psychiatrist and ive made it clear how im sick of waiting but if i chane docs  it would take just as long if not longer the doc said. Just going to try and get through today. Have to go into gawler a i need to return some dvds and check out the toy sale at target to lay buy stuff for the kids for xmas so hopefully that'll keeop me occupied so i dont think of my depression and anxiety. Will let u k now tonight how the day went. Im trying to stay positive 🙂 Take care x

[Chloekat84]

Well i saw my doctor today and surprise surprise the psychiatrist is fully booked then oes on holidays in september. Theres still heaps of time till then so if some1 cancels or something comes up i can be fitted in. Got my first psychologist appt next week but unfortunately ill have my daughter with me so will be hard to talk when im distracted. My medication has also been changed yet again because my anxiety and depression isnt getting any better. So instead of taking wat i was im on something else now. My doctor is doin everything he can but theres not much more he can do. If i have another episode he said go straight to lyell mckewin not gawler as they have mental health services. Well thats it for now x to any1 who is interested anyway

[kai333]

Hey, 
Keep on venting, i'm sure it's good for you haha. Try venting with someone close who you can meet up with in person, sometimes the best thing is just to have someone who can listen and give you a hug.

I think that anyone who has ever had to go through seeking medical treatment for depression and anxiety can really relate to what you are going through. I tried 2 different meds before finding one that didn't give me horrible horrible side effects. 

I think that it's really great what you are doing. Struggling by yourself is just the worst. And you are obviously making an effort to do everything you can to get better. It took me ages to admit that I had issues and go and see my doctor and then a psych and get the help I needed. But I think that you're really in the hard part at the moment, but once you get to see the docs/psychiatrist and get on the right med combination/dose (which might take a while) things will get better a lot faster. 

Good luck and I look forward to seeing your next vent. 

[Chloekat84]

Hey kai333. I just said on my previous post that i need to wait 2 monthes to see my psychiatrist hes all booked out!! U may have seen it. Really not looking forward to this "waiting time" as my symptoms arnt getting any better. In fact sometimes i feel like its worse when i have really bad days like today. I got a professional full body massage today with my sis at this new place in elizabeth and it really helped with my anxiety and let me loosen up all the knots physically and mentally i could just let go and relax. Definetly going back again in a few weeks. Its worth it i reacon. Well thats it for now. Hope u had a nice day. Take care  x

[AGrace]

Hi Chloekat,

Sorry to hear you had a pretty tough day. The massage sounds incredible! I'm on holiday at the moment and so far I've had 2 full body massages, a sea salt scrub, and a fully body seaweed wrap. Someone should have convinced me sooner to try these pampering experiences:) Now I think I'll have to keep them up regularly when I get home. It's been good to get away from daily life for a while, I'm definitely feeling less stressed.

That's not great news about your Psychiatrist. I hope he's really good and well worth the wait. In the interim, while you're waiting are you seeing a Psychologist? (Sorry if this has just slipped my memory). It would be good to start talking and working on some therapy techniques whilst waiting for the Psychiatrist.

I hope you're doing a little better.

AGrace

[Chloekat84]

Hey AGrace. I am seeing a psychologist this week its just unfortunate that its on the same day my daughter isnt in childcare. Its gonna be hard talking to sum1 while my 2 year old is running a muck. im hoping my sis can look after her that morning as it doesnt need to be all day as my cafhs nurse is coming to see elayna that after noon. Things are a bit all over the place atm. It was elayna's actual bday today so she had fun at childcare with her friends in the baby room and an ice cream cake. Ive been told fotos were taken. Anyways relly hope som1 can watch her while i see my psycholoist on thurs it will be my first visit. I see my doc 2moro so will be mentioning this. My mood has seemed to stabalise a bit more now im on these new anti phycs but im still not 100% The massae was very healing and relaxing like i felt every worry just melt away. I think i will make it a regular thing every fortnight or so. Well hope to talk to u soon. Take care x

[AGrace]

Hi CK,

Glad things have settled a bit. If you can't get someone to watch your daughter, perhaps you could ask the daycare if you could swap a day? Otherwise mention it to reception at your Psychologist, I know my Psychiatrist has a lot of toys in her room. This may be the case with your Psychologist?

Sounds like your daughter had a great Birthday...Welcome to the terrible 2's:))

AG