My feelings

[JacintaMarie]

Hi

I have feelings that I have and when people don't respect them (if this is the correct word) I feel worthless. And when other people feel one way, I feel bad for not feeling that way, I'm sorry, that's the way I can explain, I 'm not explaining it well.

For example, at work, I'm the only one who wears a short sleeve tee shirt & everyone else complains about the cold, I feel the odd one out for not feeling cold. I have made the mistake of explaining but this just makes them angry, they don't want to hear this, I've even said, perhaps the area is too large an area to heat up, the smaller the room, the quicker it is to heat, or is this completely wrong!

I know, I know, I shouldn't say anything, I need to be prepared for the opposite reaction, because of this I don't want to talk at all, it's easy & no one needs to get angry if they don't like what they hear. I have been told though, if people get angry, it's a reflection of them not me.

I just worry about things I shouldn't!

[JacintaMarie]

Hi the rising

I have been trying to learn their personality but the only way, is to not talk, others there if they don't like something you say, they react with anger, which is valid but to me, it makes me not want to talk to them, as I get anxious about what to say & to me, I feel its rude to "go off" at someone. But that's me, of course,

At the moment I feel terrible that apart from work, I don't want to hang out with them & that I'm failing at my work, I'm not perfect, actually my obverservance is whenever things go wrong, there is panic everywhere or is this just me

I'm not a strong person, these people are "normal" & I am struggling to deal with them, I'll try though.

Another thing, I work on a library & I need to be more observent about fixing the bad spinelabels, I haven't been fixing them, I've been lazy (my words) and the clients are going to notice & think we're not doing it, though some of the clients don't notice in their rooms.

Thanks again for my vent & I apologize if I am being too negetive about them, it is me, not them

[JacintaMarie]

SethMe

[smallwolf]

hi.

You are not weird! Perhaps look at it that you are unique. And it would be boring if everyone were the same.

I know you were using the example regarding the heating as a example and when people tell me I am crazy for not feeling the cold, my rely is "you wish you were like me". From your posts I see that you see yourself as not good at your work, people will notice this, stupid, etc.

can I ask i anyone has said you are no good (at your job)?

from my experience, people do not notice mistakes. Yet I will beat myself over something i have done. From my psychologist ... if a mistake is noticed, what is the worst thing that can happen? And... "a mistake is an opportunity for learning"

Lastly, you clearly have the skills and talents required for the job.

It is easy (for me at least) to believe our thoughts, but that is just what they are... thoughts! Not fact!

Everything I may have said is not easy to do first time, like you can flick a switch and the way you see thing change immediately. maybe give yourself a little time to find some practices where it is possible to see yourself in a different light.

Listening to you, Tim

[JacintaMarie]

Hi Tim

No, they haven't told me, my brain says it to me, though once I asked someone at work to not speak to me like she does, it was too blunt but she only turned it around & it was my own fault.

Thanks, its hard to think I'm unique but I'll try.

I am trying to use mistakes as learning tools

Plus too my interpretation of people's moods, isn't very good, I tend to feel like I'm being told off then get told off for not answering normally, I either speak too long or too short.

Or am I'm takingit too personally.

Actually I read an article in Wellbeing about empaths & feel that's me, I take on everyone's energy and stress & its exghasting me

[therising]

Hi JacintaMarie

It sounds like you've identified one of your unique senses. If you feel you're an empath, have you researched ways of managing your ability? One management strategy of an empath involves being able to emotionally detach from people when you feel the need. For example, just say one of your co-workers comes up to you expressing anger. First, you identify it's their anger you're experiencing and you then sense how it leads you to feel. If you sense it's a feeling you don't want, you can take a step back through the process of objective analysis: 'I wonder why they can't manage their anger or intolerance in ways that are going to serve everyone'. The revelation may be 'They've never been led to have to manage their anger. They feel entitled to express it, no matter who they impact'. As an empath who has managed to emotionally detach, you may sense self entitlement in them. Further revelation may come from wondering about how to manage a self entitled person. There are a lot of good exercises out there for empaths, which are well worth researching.

How many people do you know who use mistakes as learning tools, compared to the amount of people who simply love to believe they don't make mistakes? You have a truly brilliant open minded approach to life with a desire to constantly evolve. You use your mistakes as ways to become more conscious. Just like with your empathic ability you're in search of perfecting, an open mind also requires careful management.

An open minded person holds the ability to channel inspiration, channel outside the square ways of thinking, channel wonder (when it comes to the questionable nature of people and challenges), channel ideas for personal growth and so on. The challenge becomes about knowing when to shut down certain channels that don't serve you, like the ones that bring you down. Just say you're in an open minded state when someone at work comes up to you spouting out some insult at you. You gotta shut that down straight away. You really don't want that stuff coming into your head. It's a vile channel for a beautiful person to be tuned into. In this case you may choose to open your mind to to a different channel - inspiration. To channel inspiration you might ask the question 'How do I manage this person?' What comes to mind may be 'Turn around and walk away'. The challenge is to actually do this. Although simple advice, this may be the hardest thing you've ever done because you've never practiced it before.

🙂

[JacintaMarie]

Hi The rising

Thanks for that, I will try &research empaths.

It is hard to turn around & walk away,

sometimes I like the Craig David song "Walking away" , if I remember to listen or lately, I've been literally walking away so I don't have to listen, which has helped, &having work to do.

[JacintaMarie]

Hi

Got triggered at work & need to get it out. I made a mistake with an email address, a typo. I should have checked it properly.

It's stupid to get worried about, but being proactive I asked if they could generate an report so i can double check my work

My anxiety is saying I'm only one who makes mistakes, sometimes I feel better when others make mistakes, I'm not only one!

I do all right then stupid brain makes stupid mistake, thank God I'm only a level one, so hopefully my mistakes can't do anything. I hope'

Worst of it, is that client won't get overdue! Which I guess they won't that

Been back for less then a week from holidays & already worried

Though person who said it, usually always points out others mistakes & proberly has anxiety as well. I never get any positive feedback from her, all very little.

Thank you & keep safe & don't give up about the corona, it will get better

[JacintaMarie]

Hi again

This is my fault, but this one person at work, all it feels like is that I can't ever do anything right.

Plus too, I'm 39 & it feels like I want her approval, not anything negetive.

Before she did the overdues, there was someone else who used to do, but that seemed to be okay, I didn't feel so bad, I did but since this person is doing it, there seems to be always problems.

I do wrong stuff, I need to be punished but if someone else does it, nothing happens, they don't get told off or punished, why is level one's get told off more? Or is just my perspective.

Also too I got told the same person made a huge mistake once but yet they still tell others of their small mistakes, which can be easily fixed without them mentioning it, I get told this is her, just ignore but is hard, I'm frustrated with me, as I feel like she treats me like an idiot but again, this is proberly my state of mind.

[smallwolf]

I make enough mistakes each day and have a similar feeling about doing anything right. My psychologist also tell me a mistake is an opportunity for learning. And... at the end of the day, all we can do is the best that we can and that needs to be enough.

Maybe part of it a relates to the person who we are interacting with has their own things to deal with and perhaps feels "it" (whatever that is) will reflect badly on them. Recognising that, it may give me (or you) a way of moving forward.

my psychologist also suggested I read a book about things that were invented as a result of a mistake.

Nor are you stupid. May I ask if you have perfectionist tendencies?

[therising]

Hi JacintaMarie

It can be so hard to listen to the voice of reason when you're in 2 minds. One mind can be saying 'You're so stupid, why did you do that?!', whereas the other (the one of reason) can say 'Don't sweat the small stuff, simply learn from it, let go and move on'. I've just this second had a revelation and I wish to thank you, truly thank you. Without you bringing this topic to mind, it may have taken me forever to make sense of the following...

You can grow up spending a significant amount of your life justifying yourself to others. From when you're little, you're conditioned to answer questions such as

• Why did you do that, why did you behave so stupidly?!
• Why did you behave so thoughtlessly, why did you not think first?!
• Why are you so selfish?!
• Why did you not do better?!

They're all questions and accusations (hence the exclamation marks). So, you could say we're conditioned into this type of internal dialogue that may not ever leave us, unless we wake up to it. I suppose it's kind of like a form of 'brainwashing'. Here, we're born with this incredible amazing brain that gives us the opportunity to wonder and question our self constructively but then all those abilities we have (to wonder and question constructively) are washed out, replaced by a destructive and harsh chastising kind of wondering and questioning. The challenge becomes about regaining those constructive abilities.

By the way, with certain internal dialogue occasionally feeling like hell on earth, when it gets seriously deeply depressing, I suppose a constructive mantra in this case would be 'Shut the hell up' or should that be 'Shut the hellish dialogue down, straight away'.

There can be a lot of reasons for why we 'miss the mark' (face a mistake). Exhaustion, rushing something when we're under pressure, we may be new to learning something, have a million things going on in our mind at once and so on. I suppose the question is 'Why did I miss it on the first take and how can I hit my mark on the next take (take 2)?' Some things in life, depending on what they are, involve multiple takes until we reach evidence of 'practice makes perfect'.

Definitely can't hurt to wonder why that manager manages the way she does. You can be guaranteed there's a reason for it. Maybe she could be self entitled, feeling entitled to say whatever she wants or she may not have the ability to sense and relate to how others feel.

Thanks again for opening my mind 🙂