My current plan/thoughts

[Trixiebell99]

Hello all,

I just felt like writing some of my current thoughts down.

I saw a GP today and she gave me a prescription for anti-depressant/ anxiety medication. But, I don't think I want to go down that route as of yet. I think I would rather talk to a psych first. Anyways, after spiralling for a while I went for a run, and it has really cleared my head (I've never run for "fun" before). I think I have realised that in the end, it is up to me to make change. Only I can provide the change that I want - clearly I don't want to try the medication as of yet, so that means I have to find some alternative. I can't keep sitting here expecting things to change, but being too scared to actually implement that change.

So my game plan is to try and go for a run each day (or every second) and clear my head, I just thought I would write it down in this discussion board so that I try and commit to this plan.

I am going to try and be less harsh on myself - I am looking for a job, I am not going to expect to find the "perfect" job, I am going to find a job that gets me out of the house and earns me some money. I will try and stop comparing myself to others, and assuming that everyone has their life together.

I am going to try and not assume people are judging me, and I am going to try and just be me. I want to stop belittling myself, and I am going to try and be my true self, without cutting the parts out that I think/assume people won't like.

I think the biggest thing for me at the moment is that I ~need~ to get out of the house. I need to go out and do things, meet people, experience new things. Everything seems scary when I am in the house, but as soon as I leave, I realise that I do enjoy doing new things and leaving the house. Two years of on-off lockdowns has made me waaaaaay too comfortable staying home.

This is how I am currently feeling, I am going to try and cling onto this for as long as possible and try not to spiral into a hole again.

[Gambit87]

Hi Trixie!

I chose to go down pretty much the same path you have! I highly recommend seeing a psychologist, I see my psych once a month which helps me out alot.

I think the key here is consistency, as you said - 'Only I can provide the change that I want' and remembering to be kind to ourselves when we have a bad day!

Great post!

[sbella02]

Hey Trixiebell99,

Thank you so much for sharing your experience with us.

It's great to hear that you're taking responsibility for your health, what an amazing feat. Talking through alternative treatments with a psychologist sound like a great plan; it couldn't hurt to get a second opinion, absolutely.

I like your plan, and I especially like how you said you want to be less harsh on yourself. I find that I fall into that trap so often of criticising myself if certain situations don't turn out the way I intended. But it's so important to remember that even the smallest of steps towards a longer-term goal can mean so much in the scheme of things.

Likewise, even when taking yourself on these runs feels like a chore, it's important to be patient with yourself in these times too. Pushing yourself is fantastic, but equally knowing your limits is essential.

Let us know how you're going! Are there any personal bests you're looking to beat or perhaps set?

All the best, SB

[Learn to Fly]

Hi Trixiebell99,

What a great post! Very inspirational!

Doing what you like (running) to clean your head (get psych strength) and on top of that sharing with us to strengthen your commitment. Love the idea and I hope others who read your post will get motivated by it.

Well done!