Hey Ollie,
Firstly, I want you to know that I'm proud of you, and that you are so strong. That little question you asked in class, which brought you to a feeling of relief and happiness felt amazing right? Well, always keep that close to you at all times, because knowing that you faces you're fear, and nothing but good came out of it, you can do it again and again. I am not sure if you did or did not go to work today, but I hope you did. With the feeling of a sudden rush of anxiety about thinking about tomorrow or the future, you should only think about now, what is in front of you, what you are doing, how you feel about today, not how you felt yesterday, not how you think you'll feel tomorrow, just today and now.
I have learnt that, even if you are afraid about the next day, try you best to focus on something now, and when that next day comes, and the fear and anxiety you felt upcoming towards that day, go. Go to work, put yourself in a position that you are afraid, because it doesn't matter how afraid you are, keep doing it everyday by putting yourself in a positioning where you are afraid to be in again and again. No matter how long you last there, keep going, you might last an hour, and have to leave, that's okay, but go again the next day, you might only last a bit more then an hour, and still thats okay. Because you realise that you lasted more than you did the day before, you realise that it isn't as scary as it was or was the day before. As you put yourself in a positioning constantly where you are anxious and afraid, you don't become less afraid, you become more strong, you become so strong to the point where you realise what was so scary about it, why was I anxious about it, it's easy. And that might take time, but keep on going, because every second more you deal with it, thats another second and another day where you can tell yourself and feel that you dealt with you anxiety a second longer than the day before. Keep on fighting Ollie. You are a fighter.
- Ben
