Anxiety

Anxiety & Depression (may trigger anxiety)

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Hi all , i have suffered from depression and anxiety for many years now. I am a very introverted person, personally i refuse to leave the house unless im working or i need groceries. I honestly dont have any friends because i find it easier and i pre... View more

Hi all , i have suffered from depression and anxiety for many years now. I am a very introverted person, personally i refuse to leave the house unless im working or i need groceries. I honestly dont have any friends because i find it easier and i prefer not to have any. I have found new things about myself that have developed over the past few months which i find interesting and wondering if anyone experiences that same thing. So a few months ago i find many many things trigger my anxiety. I will give you examples, So when this trigger first happened i was sitting on my lounge watching a movie and on the corner of my eye i watch my sister spill oil all over the kitchen floor and proceed to mop it up with a DRY MOP. Why? Is exactly what i asked myself. When i saw that my anxiety got instantly triggered, i felt so angry and fustrated. I couldnt breathe , i felt like i was chocking. I had to get up, i stopped what i was doing and deep cleaned the entire house. I wanted to scream and throw things but i felt like i needed to get everything clean before i can relax. I dont have OCD but ever since this day everytime i see my house dirty especially the tiles on the floor it triggers anger and anxiety. another thing that triggers my anxiety is when a person keeps putting stress on me (i dont mean work) mostly family members. A particular family member will stress me out to the point where i will experience panic episodes, whenever i have panic episodes i deal with it myself either i will go to my room or the bathroom and try and breathe. My family doesnt know i suffer from anxiety but they do know i suffer from depression and because of my depression they try to help my it makes it worse. For example my brother will get me to do these daily tasks like read a book and write down what i learnt and that in itself triggers my anxiety and i get so angry, i know they are trying to help but at the same time they make me feel stupid especially the way they talk to me its like they talk slow on purpose and then ask me if i understand what they mean. I find also that when i am really really stressed out , sometimes i am that stressed out to the point i feel calm. Its difficult to explain. I have never posted anything like this anywhere nor spoken about my mental health. Share your story down below i would love to read and reply.

Scared of death/suffering

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I am petrified of dying. At least once a day, I end up thinking about those close to me dying, and whether they will suffer. The thought of my mother, father, siblings dying really terrifies me - It scares me to the point of tears for hours on end. I... View more

I am petrified of dying. At least once a day, I end up thinking about those close to me dying, and whether they will suffer. The thought of my mother, father, siblings dying really terrifies me - It scares me to the point of tears for hours on end. I sometimes feel the urge to check up on my mother, and I worry when she goes quiet. I hate seeing her upset, or unwell. I don't know what I'd do without her, I don't want her to feel pain or suffering. I am scared of myself dying - I worry about what it feels like, when will it happen. I worry so much about leaving people on this earth, and not being able to see them ever again. I understand some of these views are unrealistic, I understand it probably sounds like absolute nonsense - But I need help, I cant accept death and I cry every single day about it. My nan is very sick at the moment - And the issue is I am so scared of losing her, that I seem to be pretending it isn't happening. I cannot fathom the idea of not existing anymore. I cant be there for people, or see them anymore. Please is anyone can share any similar feelings - or offer any support or coping methods it would be really appreicated. I really don't know what else to do anymore and its slowly becoming worse.

Rejected by people in class, don't know how to cope

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I don't have a formal diagnosis but every counsellor I've spoken to recently have suggested social anxiety and I'm waiting on a return call after a Headspace consultation about 3 weeks ago(My mum said they're probably not going to get back to me beca... View more

I don't have a formal diagnosis but every counsellor I've spoken to recently have suggested social anxiety and I'm waiting on a return call after a Headspace consultation about 3 weeks ago(My mum said they're probably not going to get back to me because they won't think I have important enough issues, can anyone with experience with Headspace confirm this?). So I'm doing an intensive 2 week subject at university (I need to do this subject to graduate on time), and today was the first day. It's a very social/discussion based class which I thought would be a good way to push out of my comfort zone and improve since it's hard to get a counsellor help (The university counselor I first saw referred me to Headspace as it was long term stuff). Before the tutorial these two people seated near me were talking about why they were doing this particular subject, so I tried to join the conversation and literally got rejected (I repeated what I thought was said and then asked what they were talking about and basically got shut down and then ignored, then when the tutor got everyone to introduce themself and say why they were doing the subject they literally said exactly what I asked about). Then we were split into groups based on seating arrangements and I feel I tried to contribute but was shut out of the conversation. Then the tutor walked past and asked me the group conclusion which I didn't know and is now going to give me a bad participation mark. Also, all the teaching staff and past reviews mention you makes friends there so I feel there's extra pressure that I know I'm already going to fail at. I absolutely cannot drop this subject as I'm trying to get into different course and just need to finish this (also dropped a subject in the past due to social fears due to a certain person doing it, and I really regretted it later). But now I just feel terrible and unmotivated... I don't know how I'm going to go back into that class after already being rejected and seen as someone who doesn't participate by the tutor. Any suggestions? Would moving seats help? I feel like I can never start/try to join a conversation again. I have no idea what I did wrong.

New mum looking for advice!

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Hi all, I've recently become a mum to a beautiful healthy baby. I have always had anxiety but since having a baby, my anxiety has become alot worse, resulting in panic attacks and isolation. I am constantly in fear and feel like home is the only safe... View more

Hi all, I've recently become a mum to a beautiful healthy baby. I have always had anxiety but since having a baby, my anxiety has become alot worse, resulting in panic attacks and isolation. I am constantly in fear and feel like home is the only safe place for my child. I'm afraid of sickness, injury, car accidents etc. happening if I leave the house. I don't want this to affect my child because I want her to experience life to the fullest but I cannot get out of my own head with these thoughts. I am waiting to see a psychologist but in the mean time, I really need some tips to shake these feelings and some support as I don't have many people I feel I can talk to about this. Thanks for reading!

Needing Guidance.

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I'm a recluse who doesn't want to be a recluse anymore but I don't know how to escape the comfortable box I'm living in. (For reference I've been diagnosed with Aspergers, Anxiety, and Depression). By choice when I was 16/17 I became a shut in. The w... View more

I'm a recluse who doesn't want to be a recluse anymore but I don't know how to escape the comfortable box I'm living in. (For reference I've been diagnosed with Aspergers, Anxiety, and Depression). By choice when I was 16/17 I became a shut in. The world just kept throwing cruel/stressful curve balls at me and I couldn't deal so I hid from everything. I escaped reality by binge-watching every TV series every made. And my use of distraction worked for a few years. Ignorance was bliss. I was content with my lifestyle away from the real world. My only interactions I would have with the real world would be spent with my parents, sibling, or dogs by my side. Slowly but surely, I started noticing how my life and behavior wasn't normal. I actually wasn't content at all, I was struggling to remember if I had experienced any real happiness over the last five years. I also started craving normality ie a job, a social life, a partner, to travel. Unfortunately, me noticing how unhappy I was, meant I could no longer ignore the nagging feeling in the pit of stomach. Which is why I'm asking for help. I'm very lost inside a dark tunnel and I can't find my way out. How do I venture outside? Clearly, my self-esteem is non-existent. My social skills wasn't great to start with and haven't improved. I don't know how to keep a conversation going (I don't really have anything to say/add). I panic alot and can get very irrational and angry out of frustration. Suggestions??

Anxiety and dying

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Hi am rather new to forums. But it suggested to me to read other people's stories instead of googling my anxious symptoms. And here I am. I have had Anxiety for a while now. And was managing it well with the usual ways. But lately it's come back and ... View more

Hi am rather new to forums. But it suggested to me to read other people's stories instead of googling my anxious symptoms. And here I am. I have had Anxiety for a while now. And was managing it well with the usual ways. But lately it's come back and in a massive wave. Everyday I wake up thinking I am going to die. I so over feeling this way. I am going back to my doctor next week.

Severe OCD

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Hello, To give some context, I have suffered from anxiety for many years now, which also gradually grew into OCD, mainly with washing my hands excessively and fear of contamination, however recently it has become very extreme. I find it very difficul... View more

Hello, To give some context, I have suffered from anxiety for many years now, which also gradually grew into OCD, mainly with washing my hands excessively and fear of contamination, however recently it has become very extreme. I find it very difficult to put what I've been feeling into words, but I will try to articulate it as best I can. About a month ago I went out with a few of my friends and I ended up getting relatively intoxicated, I remember it being an enjoyable and quite uneventful night. However, the next day i went home and I started making myself believe that I had done something absolutely horrible, and I gradually made the scenario worse and worse in my head, since then i have been obsessing and convincing myself that I have done the most horrific thing ever imaginable, when I know deep down I haven't and would never do such a thing. I had no real reason to do this/indication that I had done anything, but I think I have associated alcohol with memory loss and I've made myself believe that "well, if i cant remember it, who knows what could of occurred/what I'm capable of". I have been experiencing debilitating guilt constantly ever since then, for something that I know is completely absurd. Prior to this, I had been experiencing pretty much exactly the same thing from another time, convincing myself I had done something horrendous. The thoughts from most recent night have replaced those thoughts with a even more extreme scenario. These thoughts have also made me believe I am contaminated and disgusting, which has caused me to wash my hands a very excessive amount, roughly about an entire container of soap per day (to the point where I am getting cuts/splits on my hands due to how much they are being washed). This has also stopped me from going out and doing things in fear that I will contaminate places or people, and I have pretty much done nothing but sit in my room and wash my hands. I have become extremely depressed and anxious constantly. I have never spoken about my mental health, this is my first time ever talking about my mental health, but i feel it is finally necessary as It has become extremely bad. Although I am sceptical because how will it ever be proven that I didn't do what I'm making myself believe i did? It can never been proven or shown to me with definitive proof that I didn't do it, and I can't imagine I will feel better unless I know for a fact the situation(s) did not occur. Any advice would be appreciated.

Recently recognised being anxious.

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Hi guys, I’m 35 y/o, healthy, so far, keep active, eat clean, 1 beer once in a blue moon and no drugs. I went to Thailand two months ago to meet some friends and on the very first night after a tiring flight, it was very hot in Bangkok, humid, loud a... View more

Hi guys, I’m 35 y/o, healthy, so far, keep active, eat clean, 1 beer once in a blue moon and no drugs. I went to Thailand two months ago to meet some friends and on the very first night after a tiring flight, it was very hot in Bangkok, humid, loud and went to a restaurant which was extremely hot as well and as I finished my meal, I started to feel unwell, blurry vision and shortly after I passed out for 30 seconds. After this even I have not been myself anymore, I’ve been worried about it and even though I had a FULL medical check once back to Oz and nothing is wrong with me other than having that faint episode according to the doctors due to heat and dehydration. I still felt sick and felt lightheaded and dizzy for the majority of the trip so I could not enjoy. After coming back to SYdney been feeling fearful, worried, I have my good days and my bad days, I get this anxiety out of the blue. I have had a few things going on, moving houses, buying an apartment and in the middle of renovation and also going overseas for 2.5 months on a holiday with my partner, I have been looking forward to this trip but since the Thailand episode I’ve become worried about repeating the same thing, boarding the plane and when getting to destination passing out. I know it sounds dramatic and might sound stupid but that is the fear I have. I know that I’m healthy, I did loose weigh due to all the above events but have been eating healthy. Any advise to overcome and at least try to get excited for my trip on Monday? Somehow all I think about is what if? What if that happens again?. This past 2 months have been very challenging for me. At the beginning I was denying anxiety, I would tell one doctor that he had no idea about me but he was right, I finally opened up and although I am not exactly sure if this is how anxiety feels, I know something is going on and reading this page and other post makes me understand myself a bit better. Any tips, messages and encouragement would be highly appreciated. All my love guys x

Job anxiety (like clockwork)

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I have adhd, depression and anxiety. I’ve always had trouble holding down a job (though not getting them) because within about three months I develop such extreme anxiety I can barely bring myself to leave the house. I’ve seen doctors, psychiatrists ... View more

I have adhd, depression and anxiety. I’ve always had trouble holding down a job (though not getting them) because within about three months I develop such extreme anxiety I can barely bring myself to leave the house. I’ve seen doctors, psychiatrists and psychologists but it’s always the same even if I’m doing a good job and the workplace is friendly and comfortable. I’m 37 now and the pattern is well established. If anyone has any suggestions or could share their own experiences if they’re similar I’d really love to know. Thank you.

Anxious fear of dying of cancer.

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Hello, not really sure what to say or were to start. 臘‍ I’m new. I’m not sure what’s considered too much info My mum passed away 22 years ago from melanoma cancer.Ever since then I have this fear of dying young. the closer I get to the age she died ... View more

Hello, not really sure what to say or were to start. 🤦🏻‍ I’m new. I’m not sure what’s considered too much info My mum passed away 22 years ago from melanoma cancer.Ever since then I have this fear of dying young. the closer I get to the age she died the worse I get. I am now the age she died.. 41 and I’m convinced I have colon cancer. I fluctuation between “don’t be silly” to “I am dying”. i have suffered from hemorroids for many years. They don’t usually cause any problems or pain. Occasionally have had blood after a bowel movement. Now all of a sudden I think it’s colon cancer. I have been to my dr she didn’t seem overly concerned but referred me to have a colonoscopy because I said I’m freaking out. The consult for the colonoscopy isn’t until 8 weeks time. I have also have this unusual discomfort under my right rib cage which travels to my back and shoulder blade for the last 12 months or so. It’s only been this last week that it’s constant prior to this it would come and go and not really be an issue. Just something I’m aware of. It feels like a dull stitch pain.Last year I had an ultra sound and had my liver and kidneys looked at. They found nothing. I also take medication for high blood pressure and have so for about 6 years. i get regular bloodwork to check my organs are strained. Ever since panicking about going to have a colonoscopy I feel like I notice every little detail in my body and then convince myself it’s a symptom. I don’t know how to stop thinking about this, or googling every little thing which is making me feel even worse. I’ve never felt so anxious before and I just can’t make the feeling go, I feel strange.

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