Life isnt supposed to be this hard is it?
I wasn't abused and i didn't use drugs. I have panic attacks and feel exactly how you describe. I have lots of people in my life but no one other than close family to spend time with. I live at home and work is 3 blocks away. I don't see much point in everyday activities and struggle to enjoy anything that i used to enjoy doing. There are so many things i want to do but lose the motivation as soon as i think of doing it or always find excuses not to do things, leaving me stuck at home with my parents. I was picked on at school and struggled at school because of it. I left high school during year 9. I have not had any good relationships with males, they end up using me for sex or blaming everything on me even though it is their problem. I don't know what to do but want to beat this and be free again.