I need your help

[Guest_3712]

Hi Friends,

I have been following your posts and sending what  positive thoughts I can muster your way.

As you know I have been struggling with a lot of issues and like a lot of you confused with the different advice I am given. I am sick to my stomach with conflicting thoughts and feelings.

I am so lucky to have the best psych around, but at the end of the day he can't feel what I feel. You guys can and I have missed our posts and your support.

I have been coping/( or not) by taking more meds than necessary just to zone out and get through the day. I am still working and managing to put on the ' mask' for everyone.

My anxiety attacks are just under the surface.

When will this end.?

Mares, Jo, Neil I am inspired by your tenacity to keep on going and still think of others

. I am so self absorbed at the moment I hate who I am

Be kind to your self

Stressless

[geoff]

dear Stressless thanks very much and I know what you mean. L Geoff. x

[Mares73]

Dear Stressless it's so so great to have you back! I've replied to you twice but my msgs haven't come through. I've been thinking of you & the first thing I want to do is apologise for how I may have seemed very abrupt when you said you could tell me about ECT. I sincerely appreciated the offer but I don't feel it's a viable option for me. Now back to you-you have been experiencing a very difficult time of late & anxiety can make you feel immobilised. I know the dreaded feeling of your stomach in knots, shallow breathing, feeling like your body is rigid & your mind is overwhelmed. It's a terrible thing to have. Like you I take antianxiety medication & I've taken it for roughly 10 years. I've been informed that the med I take is to be reclassified. Therefore it won't be allowed that I take it. I'm terrified of this. But I saw a Pyschologist yesterday for first time and we talked about my avoidance tendencies including use of medication. Ant we also discussed distraction techniques as Lethal has suggested. It meant that the minute you notice your mind going on overdrive or alternatively you feel your getting lower in mood-then you try do something else straight away to help stop the thoughts overwhelming you. Maybe you could write a list of triggers, a list of things you enjoy & a list of distractions and use them according to situation. Stressless I know that sounds way too simplified compared to what your feeling. I experience anxiety so I can empathise with you and share things I've been advised but in the end it comes down to what you can live with about yourself and what you can't. And it's a long hard journey but worth jumping on & trying from time to time. I wish you all the happiness you deserve. I wish you piece of mind. Your in my thoughts, Lve Mary xxx

[Guest_3712]

Hi Mares,

so lovely to hear from you and as Neil is always saying there is no need to apologise for anything.

ECT is not for everyone and I was not offended in any way. I was really worried about you though before you went to your mum but I didn't feel I could offer you anything at the time . I was reassured that you were getting the best support from everyone here.

What I hate the most about this illness is the up and down, the false starts, the feeling of elation one minute , then down the tube the next. The inconsistency is so stressful and debilitating.

I get so disheartened. I have had so much support over the last 5 years, including docs, hospital, therapies etc so I know what to do but I'm sick of it.

Does anyone know what I mean.? I don't want to have to monitor my thoughts, feelings, emotions I just want to live normal. I don't want to be thinking of the beautiful beach sunrise then have these awful intrusive thoughts come crashing in.

I want to be able to say exactly how I feel and not be scared like other posters about being carted off to hospital.

I can't remember a day in my life when I haven't had this crap in my head.

I am so fed up .sorry for banging on Mares I appreciate your concern.

Stressless

[lethal55]

hi stressless

can not help with the ups and downs i have only had downs for 43years

being disheartened increases the more people i talk too

i have had the police turn up at my front door to take me to luny bin on sevral ocasions now thy ring first and the local luny bin say i am to voilent to place their

the best thing for health is say what you think and feel but others do not want to hear any of it or belive any of it

bang on as much as you like if that helps you     lethal