I need help please!

[Guest_3712]

Hi  friends,

I haven't posted for a while as like others have mentioned I wasn't sure if coming on here was triggering a lot of my anxiety however,I have been looking everyday and checking in on everyone and sending lots of positive vibes and electronic hugs.

I guess it's a bit rich to come on here now and ask for help when I haven't contributed in a long time- I have had a fairly major setback over the last few weeks and I am struggling to keep my head above water.

My psych has seen me twice in 2 weeks and we have also spoke on the phone. I have been keeping a diary of my alcohol consumption ( as he was concerned about the increase) and I also added what I thought were my triggers.

The main theme was my reaction to events I have no control over- most common was news re any suicides and/ or child abuse. I guess it became obvious to me that I was taking on these events as if they were happening to me or someone close to me. 

How can I change my behaviour for these people from manic and self destructive to the genuine compassion I feel and then move on. I know there are many chapters of my life that have not been closed properly, and chances are never will be but I cannot continue taking on the raw grief of the world's victims- it's eating me up inside.

Does anyone else do this? I really need some help .

Stressless

[Guest_3712]

Hey Neil,

so good to hear from you. I always have a moment of affirmation when I read your posts because you get it.

When I began to dissect the whole , " you control your own thoughts / feelings thing" it seemed so simple but oh so complicated. The fact that I could choose how I felt seemed unreal to me. I had ( still do on bad days) always blamed 'things' for my depression, anxiety.

Like my chronic pain, my meds addictions, my weight gain, my husband , politicians , the greenhouse affect, the Easter bunny ( just making sure you're paying attention) you get the idea.

To learn I actually controlled how I felt and then reacted to these issues was mind blowing.

Ok so the big one being, I may not be able to control events either past or present I can choose how I respond. I can decide to be sad, angry, resentful, guilty or not!

yes powerful stuff I agree. All I need to learn now is how to harness this power for good not evil - 🙂

Hope you are travelling ok at the moment, and I daresay with all the footy on at the moment you must be feeling suitably amped up!

Don't forget to look after yourself though and

Be kind to yourself

Stressless ( I'm trying)

[Light9]

Thanks so much Stressless...wowser, I have never hit such a low the last week, it was quite frightening.  I felt like I couldn't reach out to even my oldest friends because they just didn't really want to know.  It sorts out who has the more sensitive understanding and who just backs off (and possibly gets an ego boost from being superior and "more together".  Just how it felt this week.  Anyway, counting my blessings (and this forum), because it feels like the only safe place to go right now.  I have lifted too, hope it lasts and the worst is over for you too.  Yes, it's great choosing how we react and feel about things.  I love this bus that drives around here...It just says "BE HAPPY" on the front.  like it's a choice if you choose to be.  Counting our blessings is sooo important when we need to let go of the negatives..

Much love, strength and thanks again SL

L 🙂