Hello Pinkypopz
Welcome to Beyond Blue. Your post is not very explanatory but I understand that you are fearful of being more explicit.
Please be assured, no one here will think any the worse of you for whatever has happened in your life or what you fear may have happened. In any case, all posts are anonymous. None of know who you are or where you live. This is a safe site to be.
Having said that, I want to reinforce that you do not need to write anything that makes you uncomfortable or scared. We will try to help with whatever you want to write.
Since this 'thing' is so scary I am guessing you do not want to confide in a family member or close friend. What about your GP? Can you phone your local helpline or Beyond Blue? The BB number is at the top of the page and operates 24/7 with professional people on the other end of the line. You will also be anonymous to them so it will be safe to talk. They may then be able to refer you to another appropriate source of help or help you directly.
Whatever it is that is scaring you so badly needs to be addressed quickly before you become overwhelmed by it all. Please get on the phone to BB as your first port of call. I am certain they will be able to help. Then write in here again and put my mind at rest.
Warm regards
LING
