Hi everyone, Im 24 years old and I am new to the forums.
I am writing today as I would like to get some advice about how to cope with how I’m feeling.
About one week ago, I had a bad batch of intrusive thoughts about hurting a friend. Since then, I have had an ongoing and severely painful chest pain, similar to the chest pain you feel during a panic attack but its constant 24/7. I have tried many things like staying positive, telling myself it will be ok, trying to remain calm but the fear and pain will not turn off. It has made me physically sick to the point that i got to throw up when I eat, my body goes weak and I get hot flushes and shakes. This has now caused my old intrusive thoughts i used to suffer about suicide to resurface as I have a very bad fear of dying after having lost my dad 5 years ago to a heart attack and so my intrusive thoughts twist this into mind games.
I had been on my medication for a month before this happened and have started on them once again after seeing my local doctor as he said it would be best, especially since he checked me over and said my physical health was normal.
I am currently on a waiting list to get back into therapy, so I thought I would come here in the meantime to get some advice as I’m so scared that these chest pains won’t go away as I physically cannot function right now and am even too scared to leave my home.
I just want the pain to stop so I can start to continue working on healing my complex grief.
Thanks for listening.
