Breakup & Anxiety

[Jane24]

I've struggled with anxiety for many years, with bad panic attacks. The severity has ebbed and flowed throughout my life. I still had things to work on but I finally felt like things were on track. I had a new home, with a new partner, new job opportunities and I was slowly facing fears I'd avoided for years (I'm 28).

Then my industry was stopped due to corona virus, my partner broke up with me and I had to move back home with my elderly parents. Being back home I feel like all the old anxious feelings are back. Stuck in isolation hasn't helped. I managed okay at first, but I've slipped back into anxiety & depression with daily panic/crying attacks that I can't shift, they just overwhelm me.

I can deal with the relationship ending, but it's that he said my anxiety was too hard to deal with & he didn't want to do life with someone not "meeting him on his level". When he'd been so supportive at the start & I'd made so much progress and I was finally feeling good and capable in myself... Even when doing well, it wasn't good enough. It made me lose hope because I'd been feeling so proud of how far I'd come & I felt crushed by what he said. So now I've gone backwards & I feel like I'm worthless & stuck.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Jane24,

Thanks for reaching out this morning. It sounds like you are going through a lot at the moment and we can hear that this is all being exacerbated by the pandemic. We are so sorry to hear about what has happened with your partner. Break ups are so difficult. Please know that you're not alone and many of our community members will relate and be able to offer you some kind words.

If you feel it might be useful, we'd encourage you to visit our Coronavirus Mental Wellbeing Support Service. The website will be regularly updated with information, advice and strategies to help you manage your wellbeing and mental health during this time. This service includes counselling support and we would recommend that calling our friendly counsellors might be helpful, particularly in moments when you are feeling overwhelmed.

Please feel free to keep us updated here on what you're feeling and going through. These forums are here for you whenever you feel up to it.

[Miles_BNE]

Hi Jane,

I empathise with you, and understand your fears and anxiety/depressive thoughts. I only joined BB today, so am currently acquainting myself with this wonderful organisation and community, but I also suffer from Obsessive Thoughts Anxiety, which has become a big hurdle in my daily life for most of 2020. With some people, being in familiar surroundings will definitely regurgitate past unpleasant thoughts and emotions, but with others it can be comforting/helpful. Generally I would think that it wouldn’t be healing, but as I say, I am new to this network and therefore other experienced BBers may have useful, constructive help for you.
Good luck, Jane!

Miles

[Jane24]

Thanks Miles. I hope your journey here goes well!
I'm finding it does regurgitate those past thoughts & feelings. I've booked a session with a counsellor on Monday which is fortunately bulk billed so I'm hoping that will help. I hope you have lots of support around you too, it's nice to know that there are people on these forums who understand and care.