I posted here a while back discussing the health issues I was plagued with and this post is not much different. I'm suffering from anxiety and depression in many different ways as a direct result of gastrointestinal issues. Ever since a young age I've been anxious, especially anxious of eating food in public or being sick in public. I think this comes down to a fear of vomiting otherwise known as I've been told "emetophobia".
The last few months the GI (gastrointestinal) issues I've had my whole life have taken a serious affect on my whole, the point in which I never feel good. Always queasy, always nauseous and always terrified of vomiting even in the comfort of my own home. As this has been on-going and my hospital referral to see a specialists for my GI issues is not for another 10 days (Just so happened to be an urgent case), I've been confined to the spaces of my home and at this point have pretty much lost all motivation and my ability to get outside of the house, let alone ever work again (I'm an 18 year old male that quit my job because of these very health conditions).
I'm curious as to what in my stage of health mentally and physically what can I do? I'm limited to non-physical activities and any activities involving leaving the house is beyond what I can handle because of how I feel physically daily. My relationships including that between myself and my girlfriend are slowly falling apart. I can't ever see anyone nor hang out with anyone just because of the nature of how I feel. Quite frankly I just feel left alone, my mother tells me constantly that my GI issues are in my head and that there's nothing wrong with me and although I believe this to be false, it really makes me question my sanity. Am I living a big lie? Is this a trick my mind is playing on me in order to run from the real world where a hard working job is necessary and just a part of life?
I really don't know what to do anymore, I look like crap, I feel like crap everyday and even now it's 5AM and I'm yet to sleep solely because of nausea. I'd appreciate any responses of support.
Thank you very much.
