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where to from here?

John_P
Community Member

Hello.

I am feeling very lost. I try to hide it but i have been feeling like this for 2 years.

2 years ago my ex broke up with me. It was a shock and just left without any reasoning. That's usually cool, but we were about to get married and NO-ONE saw the breakup coming. What is was left with was me blaming myself, but in reality it is probably nothing i could have done different. ( i tried my best and friends told me not to worry).

As i moved states to live with her, my only network was her and her family and friends. I found it very hard to move on as i am a 1 woman man, and i just couldnt move back home as it meant closure.

In the last 2 years i have had to fend for myself, i have become a womaniser-sleeping with a lot of woman and dating many women (where before-i was the sweet loyal fun loving boyfriend type) i have moved a couple of jobs, find it extremely hard to let people in as a friendship. I have developed an unhealthy habbit of looking up erotic material on the internet dailt.

Over the past 8 months i am dating a girl that i really really like and she loves me. She is an angel and realy a catch but i am finding it hard to emotionally commit to her- (its complicated because she plans to move overseas for 2 years and then come back to be with me). In my alone time I cry relentlessly. I have emotional freak outs. My mind goes back in flashabacks to my failed relationship and all the people i lost whilst in that relationship. I have this constant throbbing in my head.

I dont know weather to do a long relationship or just move back home with my friends and family?

Also I dont know is wrong with my emotions, wellbeing-flashbacks- do i have PTSD? depression? I find it hard to see any positives in life despite my career success and this new amazing woman.

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geoff
Champion Alumni
Champion Alumni

Hi John, I must say you are well articulated, when a door closes you look for different ways of doing things, which leads you to new doors and new paths, that's exactly what I did after my divorce, I changed direction, the door I closed was locked and the key was thrown away.

The question you ask in your last paragraph,'how do you find new happiness', well one thing is that you've de-cluttered and thrown out what you don't want, secondly, you're connecting with the people you want to and thirdly, you have closed the doors that you want no part of any more.

That's what I've also done, there were many unsolved problems I couldn't solve or sort out, so I have locked them up in an imaginary box and set them afloat, a rather dramatic composition, but if I was to re-open them behind that closed door, then back I'll be at square one, struggling once again.

To find my best happiness I must say is difficult because there are situations and circumstances that have changed throughout my life, however, I can say that today was better than yesterday.

Good talking with you.

Geoff.

John_P
Community Member

Great to chat to you Geoff.

I like how you ended your paragraph. Today was better than yesterday. I think we compare ourselves to where society says how things should be .White picked fence with smiles....but if we compare ourselves to others or what society says we should be, then we are in trouble. But if we compare ourselves to our version of yesterday and today we are one step closer to OUR version of happy life, then things are good.

Thanks for the compliment on being articulate. Others would say that I am a really high achiever (really successful career, reallly intelligent) but the more i have achieved in my career, but i lose love the more i realise relationships and connections are the key to life, not obtaining material possessions or keeping up with the Jones's.

CONCEPT: I have a vision board - If i put on the vision board things on there to strive for (that is within my control) and i make incrimental progress to those things (exercise, health eating) then surely i will feel better. Becasue those things are in my control.

CONCEPT: just be a better version of you today that you yesterday

geoff
Champion Alumni
Champion Alumni

Hi John, well said, if you can do something new today which you didn't do yesterday, then that's an achievement, but if you're getting tired of the same old activity and didn’t feel the
same about doing it, then leave it or drop it, why persevere, it's probably doing more harm than good.

I've ticked your comment.

Geoff.

John_P
Community Member

Hello.

So I am three sessions into my 10 sessions with the psycologist. Today he performed a therapy EMDR. Where it is rapid eye movement therapy where old memories are reprocessed. Has anyone else been through this therapy before? is it effective. today was my first session. thanks

John_P
Community Member
i am a few months progressed from where i was to where i am now....im making steady progress in my mental health...i have noticed that the more sense of community...therefore the less my symptoms....is the treatment for mental health connectivity and connection???? for me. the more i express sincere connection, the more warm fuzzys and the more support i feel...is this the solution?