People can't seem to help me

[Panic_atthefrontallobe]

Hi. I'm Georgia. I'm not sure if I have clinical depression. I did the checklist thing and it said I was a high 30. Anyway. I'm a real downer to be around. I'm really a glass half empty sort of person. If something small bad happens I won't bother to look on the other "good" sides. If  I'm not feeling great the only support my "friends" offer me is "looks on the bright side" or "it'll get better". They can never actually offer advice or even pretend to seem interested in me. The sad thing is that I give them continuous support that they never appreciate. To add to the mixture, I don't really see the point in living. If the purpose of living is to try things and be happy and to experience, there's no point because as soon as you die those memories seise to exist. I honestly find it difficult to be happy and my friends don't  even try to help me because they only care about themselves. I'm not sure if anyone will help me in this thread. I'm not sure if anyone cares. I'm not even sure if someone has gone through the same thing. But hey if you're reading this and hopefully someone will relate. 


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[white knight]

Hi P,  A warm welcome here at Beyond Blue forum,

Yes, we do care. Many of us here are sufferers, actually all of us, and we give up our time daily to help people like yourself and we do it voluntarily 100%. Caring has become our daily routine. It's in us for zero reward.

Humans are intelligent animals that cannot seem to accept death as part of life. It isnt easy to live while you will one day arrive at the gates of - nil life. So I understand why you think the way you do. On the flip side if you are here once only then you might as well make the most of it and seek happiness because it is likely a long time before yo get to those gates.

Perhaps you need a thrill, a passion like in a hobby or sport. The trouble with sport and other passions that involve other people, is the social factor with mental illness. The bullying and the ostracising etc. But we can do these activities on the fringe of it, just mingling so it is all managable.

Changing from a half glass empty to half glass full person isnt easy and once you ar eon that chosen road it will take time. But you will never look back and you will identify when you meet a negative person from then on. You should IMO seek books on motivation, lecture on it and ask fun loving positive people of their secrets in how they became how they are.

For me it was a lecture in 1982, a man selling insurance that decided he'd be a millionaire following a heart attack. His wife's laugh at his quest was the trigger. You dont need much for a trigger. Then focus, get to that goal then think of a new goal.

There is truth about "life is what you make it". but you also have to be realistic. Those that claim you can do anything are not realistic. So make your goals realistic. You also should appreciate what you are.  I watch youtube videos from MAHARAJI mainly "the perfect instrument".  There are several others from him that are right along the lines of what you might benefit from. Google it and see if they help.

Take care and do what one person suggested to me once.  "Tony, if you have never watch a flower bloom or a sunset from start to finish, you havent lived"  Both take about 2 hours. Think about that.