Hello diamond. Oh sweet lady, what an awful thing to be going through. I feel so deeply for you. Of course you're grieving, no matter what age you are and no matter your life circumstances, the loss of a child is a deeply profound and traumatic thing for any woman.
One thing I want you to know is that it is not your fault. We gals are very good at blaming ourselves when things like this happen. But it is not your fault. Know that, believe it. This happened to you, not because of you.
I understand you having trouble talking to your friends and family about it, especially if you're young. But I think you do need to talk it out with others who understand. There is a support group called SANDS who provide support following miscarriage. Call them on 1300 072 637 or look at their website. You can also call Pregnancy, Birth and Baby on their 24 hour helpline on 1800 882 436.
I'd also suggest you visit a family planning clinic or women's health clinic to make sure you are physically OK. These visits are entirely confidential and the staff will be understanding.
Grief for an unborn baby is as real as grief for a born child. It will ease in time, but you deserve and need support now and should not go through this alone.
Much love to you diamond.
Kaz
