Hi Kendall,
Thanks for sharing your story. I agree with Geoff - you are clever enough to be aware of your feelings (that is half the battle won already, you may not know it yet, but it is.....) and you have picked this up early on. Go and speak with somebody, don't let it go on too long as it is just harder to get past.
To feel isolated in a group is very common. Often, I found times like this I seemed to be "in my own head". Although it doesn't seem this way to most observers, when people are in a group interacting normally they are on a kind of "auto pilot". This is the comfort that we are used to, our regular consciousness. If this feeling goes away, often we retreat internally and feel cut-off.
Next time you feel this way, make a conscious effort to simply "study" your feeling, pay deep attention to it. Don't become the feeling. Once you are able to step outside of it, you change the dynamic between yourself and the feeling, you become an observer. THis is heightened awareness, not auto-pilot nor being stuck in your own head. It is a break in the thought-feeling-behaviour chain. This is an important practice, and will serve you well in getting past these feelings and normalizing (bettering) your feelings of interaction and connection with others.
I found The Power of Now (by Eckhart Tolle) to be very useful when dealing with the mind. Pick up a copy if you get a chance. All the best and come back to talk with us anytime.
Steve
