I think I have depression..

[CloudyKayla]

So as the title says, I think I have depression.. I probably don't but I felt like posting something because I feel really down all the time.. Basically, I've been feeling sad and stuff for probably over a year now, my doctor said I have anxiety and I have anxiety attacks and stuff but I don't know how to deal with that either. 

So the reason I think I'm depressed is that I just want to sleep all the time, I'm always tired and I've been tithe doctor about it a lot and had blood tests and stuff but I'm fine, I hate school, I don't want a job and have no plans for the future (I'm probably just lazy lol), and to be honest I just kinda feel done with life. (I'm not gonna kill myself). 

I don't know, I don't have anyone to talk to so I thought I'd come here, I don't really know what else to say..

[bzb]

Dear Mikayla,

That's how I felt when I had depression. I suggest returning to your doctor and discussing it further. Also, I'm sure you have already read the information on this site about depression and anxiety. From my understanding, anxiety and depression are on opposite ends of the same scale. 

It sounds like it is concerning you. If your GP won't listen, find another until you are heard and perhaps ask for a referral to see a psychologist who can give you strategies to use to help you manage your anxiety.

You mentioned school. Do you have counselling services available at your school or is there anyone there who could assist you? Also, have you talked to your parents? 

Please let us know how you go. I hope this is helpful.

Take care,

bzb

[CloudyKayla]

Hi, yes I have spoken to my mum but whenever I do she gets really worried and I don't want to upset her. She has said that she will take me to a councillor or something but I'm scared.. I don't know why.. I'll talk to my mum more about it.. I just feel alone because besides my mum I have no one.. 

I think I'll go see someone.. Thank you for responding it means a lot. 

[Jo3]

Hi Mikayla

I agree with bzb, you really need to get this sorted out.  From what you're saying I think you are depressed.  I had the same feelings when I was diagnosed.

It's good though that you can talk to your mum and have a close bond, that is great. 

Please don't be scared in opening up and talking, it will really help you.  The worst thing you can do is bottle it all up, believe me I did for 30 more years and now I am suffering.

Please take care, hope to hear from you again soon.

Jo xx

[coolbanana]

Hi Mikayla,

please do go see someone.  I have just started seeing a counsellor after several years of not. When i was originally diagnosed, i was actually doing a counsellor course. Wanted to save the world! ( messiah complex.) anywho, i got a lot of help back then, some quarter of a century ago. But then went thru the ups and downs of self medication, thinking i was better so didnt need the meds, then falling in a hole. I didn't seek any more real help til late last yr when the black dog sat down on my head at work. I will put my whole story up on this site onr day, but not just yet.

if the first person you go to doesn't help try another, and another. There are many different styles of counselling, and they don't all suit everyone. It may feel like its too hard, and that is ok to feel that way, but don't give up. Prayers for you.

teejay