my name is jasmine, i’m 13 going on 14 and i’m severely overweight (side note: this is my first time writing down my feelings so apologies for poor punctuation and/or typos), i have hypothyroidism and due to my depression i was never motivated to do anything, i skip my meds…skipping one day of exercise turned to never exercising and the list goes on, my parents are immigrants and they don’t understand anything essentially i’m forced to deal with everything myself, my anxiety and depression and self harm. back to me being overweight… i was always a fat kid, i remember when i was 8 it got so bad that i stopped eating for a period of time, I WAS 8. and when i was 10 i started self harming...i tried everything but nothing would ever work for me, i just gave up, i look at all my friends and all the girls my age and they have such perfect bodies and they can wear what they want and do what they want, in my culture people like to fat shame alotttt and my parents and relatives would constantly fat shame me. i’m fat and i hate it, i honestly don't want to livebecause im a total failure, i just want to look pretty, i want people to look at me and think “she’s beautiful”
i want to be confident but im just a loser who rots all day…i hate this and honestly i wish i looked like all the other girls and wear cute clothes and take cute photos and be able to have a special someone and be confident.
