i’m fat and it’s killing me
my name is jasmine, i’m 13 going on 14 and i’m severely overweight (side note: this is my first time writing down my feelings so apologies for poor punctuation and/or typos), i have hypothyroidism and due to my depression i was never motivated to do anything, i skip my meds…skipping one day of exercise turned to never exercising and the list goes on, my parents are immigrants and they don’t understand anything essentially i’m forced to deal with everything myself, my anxiety and depression and self harm. back to me being overweight… i was always a fat kid, i remember when i was 8 it got so bad that i stopped eating for a period of time, I WAS 8. and when i was 10 i started self harming...i tried everything but nothing would ever work for me, i just gave up, i look at all my friends and all the girls my age and they have such perfect bodies and they can wear what they want and do what they want, in my culture people like to fat shame alotttt and my parents and relatives would constantly fat shame me. i’m fat and i hate it, i honestly don't want to livebecause im a total failure, i just want to look pretty, i want people to look at me and think “she’s beautiful”
i want to be confident but im just a loser who rots all day…i hate this and honestly i wish i looked like all the other girls and wear cute clothes and take cute photos and be able to have a special someone and be confident.
Thank you for finding the courage to post your story here in our very supportive forums. We can hear you’re going through a difficult time and have been feeling shamed.
If you’re feeling suicidal or are having thoughts about harming yourself, it's important to take immediate steps to keep safe. Lifeline offer crisis support, available 24/7 on 13 11 14, or online: https://www.lifeline.org.au/
If you’d prefer to reach out to us, we’re on 1300 22 4636, or you can use our webchat here: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/
If there’s ever an immediate risk of harm, the number to call is 000 (triple zero).
We’d also recommend having a look at the Beyond Blue safety planning app. You can read about how it works and where to download it here: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/beyondnow-suicide-safety-planning
You can even call Lifeline and complete it with one of their counsellors over the phone if you'd like.
Thanks again for sharing. We hope you'll hear back from our community in response to your post sometime today and that there's some comfort in that for you.
I'm the same age as you and honestly the people in my grade don't judge people by their weight i haven't met ANYONE in my school who is like that so the people in your school don't judge you either, anyway its not your fault you have hypothyroidism and it can be cured i think. Keep going bestie we love you 🙂 ❤️❤️❤️