Dealing with deep thoughts and overthinking

[abit_lost_rn]

Hi.

Just come here to talk about it, see others' viewpoints.

My name is sam, and I am on here to talk about my anxiety. Basically, since I was young I have struggled with overthinking and my deep passion. It's like there's a deep desire that can never be filled. Feels like I'm lifting a boulder over my head at times, my mind turns on me a lot, but I never show it and I often feel like its hard to show but easy to feel. I had an alright childhood, but my parents used to fight a lot and my dad was very inconsistent in the way he behaved, with him often threatening my mum and being overly focused on his own spirituality.

Adversity has followed me everywhere as well. I come from a religious family and I feel like It messed me up a bit, because most people arent spiritual.

My mum has it hard, as she's single, works full time, and looks after all my various siblings.

I don't know how to find a sense of peace in myself and I feel like people don't understand me. The first abit of my life i was fine, until i got close to the first partner I had, and I realized how overly emotional I was.

So far its been a solo ride, and I have figured out the issues with-in. I feel a deep sense of confusion with god, why am I so afraid of love when im so good at giving and being selfless.

[geoff]

Hello Sam, I'm not religious but if you have a parent who is dominant about their beliefs, it does make it much harder for you to be able to think clearly, others may disagree and that's their right, but it won't develop your own thinking as you may be always questioning just wanting to be yourself.

Can I ask you to type 'intrusive thoughts' into your browser and would like to know what you think.

Best wishes.

Geoff.

[Petal22]

Hi abit lost rn,

Wellcome to our forums!

Im sorry you are feeling this way, I understand anxiety can difficult I also use to suffer with this severely but I’ve now recovered thanks to the professional help I received.

Can I ask what your deep passion is and why you think you feel you have a deep desire that can’t be filled?

I understand when you say that your mind turns on you, do you mean it does this in a negative way?

How to find peace in yourself? I learned to do this by forgiving myself and others it created a peaceful place inside me and I was able to move forward with this.

[Positive_vibes89]

Hi Sam, I was raised as a catholic and attended church on a regular basis. Im sorry to hear that your parents fought alot, mine did too. It is really emotionally distressing to witness this whilst growing up and it would definately contribute to feelings of anxiety. Religion is a very senstitive topic, I am not religious anymore. When I was 11 years old I decided not to believe in god, I was lucky because my parents let me make up my own mind.

To live a life of peace, I believe we do not need to be religious or need the bible to tell us how to live. We just need to be the best possible person we can be in which is to be kind, compassionate and caring towards others. Know the difference of right and wrong. We do not need god to have a moral compass, it is allready embeded within ourselves. If there was a god, they would want you to live your best life, and to live it the way you want it to be lived. I feel that you may need to go and talk to a psychologist about all your feelings. You can give beyond blue a call 1300 22 4636 or visit your GP to arrange a refferal to a psychologist. I think it would be difficult to talk to your parents about how you are feeling as they will be biast towards their faith in religion. And you can receive a diagnosis for your anxiety and receive a treatment plan for you to cope.

I wish you all the best Sam and I hope you are okay.

[chadicha]

Hey Sam, I deeply resonate with your story. My parents divorced when I was younger and come from a religious family. I definitely questioned religions and was open to learning about new ones. I grew up in a Christian household and in my earlier teenage years I definitely questioned God and is this real, who am I, why am I here etc. but I allowed myself to explore and ultimately abandoned religion for a few years (I went to a catholic school) and later came to discover spirituality in Christ (not religion)- I'm now 18.

I truly believe you are on your own path and your going to figure things out for yourself. I believe in God (after all, how else am I here - what is a creation without its creator) and that Jesus loves us so much. you are on your own spiritual walk, and this is what sets you free. I find that with spirituality, no matter what is going on in your life, how bad and hopeless it seems - it breathes life back into you, and gives you faith to keep going and knowing that you are loved and have higher purpose - beyond eyes can see.

Don't let other people tell you what to believe - find out for yourself. Ask god to reveal himself to you and he will. Everyone has different levels of morals, what I think is wrong another person may find right, so where do you draw the line. Even if you believe you are the best person you can be, undoubtedly you have hurt someone in a way you would have no idea about - that's why believing in someone beyond me, and casting all my fears, doubts, anxieties, worries, burdens onto God has truly worked miracles in my life. I have found for me, I struggled immensely more than I did without spirituality as it has helped me to alleviate my inner turmoil and to truly have faith in someone beyond me, than when I tried to battle it all out alone. Peace and love to you, this difficult chapter is preparing you for your amazing story. You are strong, and I am so inspired by your resilience during this time. Keep the faith, never lose hope.