Choosing where to live dilemma/ feel stuck

[amc24]

Hi, for some context I'm 15 🙂 Last yr I went to UK and I miss it so much- I've looked into every way to get back there and I'm left with only one way- moving there permanently on my own to live with the family I have over there. One one hand I really want to- I can imagine myself there and what life would be like but then I'm also conflicted because I don't want my grades to drop due to changing my curriculum/ grading system, missing my parents or not making any friends/ getting made fun of- being the new kid, especially with an accent sounds really scary but then I suddenly think 'i'll adapt and work really hard, I'll be fine and make friends it's not hard'. I have a British Citizenship and as long as someone would be okay with me living with them it would be doable I'm just still not sure if I want to or not. I don't want to create a rift between me and my parents but I could become super close with my family over there. I really can visualize it but it's all about the light I put it in- It's okay and Im living a cool, average life over there or I miss my parents and living with someone who's not them makes it hard because it's not as easy to tell someone who's not your parents personal things/ health things, ect I'm so torn. It'll either be a really good decision or have a very negative impact on my life and there's no turning back on which ever decision I make. I've looked into all the details and stuff sp I know all that stuff like schools. I tried talking to my cousin (possible accommodation) but it didn't get that far- she's so busy. All I think about is being there and I don't want to have to wait until I graduate but is this the best way to do it? I feel good about it but then I think it's a terrible idea. I want to be more clear on it before I talk to my parents- I'm not sure if I should even bother, especially if I don't know for sure. Someone asked if I was running away from something but besides my dislike of Australia I have nothing to run away from- my school life could be a little better but it's okay for now. The idea of graduating from there makes me sad but then if I moved would I graduate with as good a grades- the grades I get there could make it easier to get into Uni there tho (which is already my current plan). I'm just really torn if anyone has any insight on how it could be negative or positive or affect my relationships with people (family) or anything else helpful it would be really appreciated thanks 🙂

[amc24]

Hi Jess,

yeah I’m not brave either I’m just really unhappy here but I don’t know how much happier i would be if I moved because new problems would arise there as well so I’m not sure what to do- I’m on school holidays (halfway through) and I’m still as stressed as I am when I’m at school and definitely not ready to go back. I want to talk to my parents but I’m not sure how 😕

thanks agajn