HI Anne
Wish I was there beside you.
Do you know what it is you feel sick about, when it comes to work? Are there factors at work that you find sickening, certain people or conditions or is it a matter of feeling sick with fear in general? Is there someone at work who you could think of who would lead you to feel less sick? Can remember when I first started in the job I'm in, some amazing workmates who I used to focus on to help me get to that job each day without feeling so sick with fear. I could hear their words in my mind, 'Don't be so hard on yourself, you're learning. You'll get there. Don't worry so much'. They were the people who gave me the confidence I didn't have. While I had that so called 'devil in one ear' (my ego telling me 'You'll never master this job'), my workmates were my angels in the other ear.
It's definitely a sickening feeling, to work up to facing what we fear. The greater the mental/physical emotion (energy in motion) the greater the hyperactivity in the mind and body. Incredible how much the mind and body are so connected. It is said that working out the dis-ease in the mind helps work out the dis-ease or disease in the body, even if that disease is as simple as muscular tension. A brief exercise that often makes some difference to me when I'm stressed:
I sit in a chair in my back yard, in nature. As I hold my arms up at heart level and stretch them out to the sides, I let my head fall back as I say in my mind 'I let go of what stresses me, what causes me such dis-ease. I open my arms and release it'. I stretch my arms out far and fully until I can feel the pulse of my heart beating in my fingertips. While my arms are out, I say in my mind 'I invite, with open arms, what inspires me'. I then begin focusing on my breath. As I breathe out, I do it fully, saying in my mind 'I breathe out what stresses me, what causes me such dis-ease. From my heart, out through my mouth, I release it'. It's an interesting exercise for, when I stretch, I'm often surprised by how much tension I've been storing in my neck, back and arms.
It is said that the body has an incredible intelligence of its own. It will do what's best for us, a lot of the time without us realising. It'll automatically stretch to release tension, it will exhaust mental stress through sighing, it will shut down for sleep when we need energy and raise its energy to reach high temps when there's some bug that threatens us. It'll even tell us when our thoughts are hyperactive.
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