Overthinking and overwhelming

[lala_lily]

Has anyone ever felt so stressed and overwhelmed out of the blue? Well I do because I tend to overthink too much about what mistakes I do and I feel nauseous and wanted to just throw up. I realised I have anxiety and nervous all the time and I breakdown in silence as if my soul just left my body. I couldn't think straight and focus or hear anyone talking or calling to me. At times my flashbacks and nightmares is playing up and I have trouble sleeping as I overthink way too much. Maybe I need help? Everytime I seek for help I don't know why I started to cry, maybe I just haven't told anyone how I feel? I just never learn how to express how I feel or share my own pain. I been carrying this heavy pain for quite long now and I have thought of quitting my own life and just slowly wanted to run away and disappear from everyone. Please I just want to know what everyone's thoughts about this and what I can do to overcome this kind of fear that is eating me away? 

[mmMekitty]

Hello Lala_lily & welcome to the forums.

I think this was a difficult & painful thing for you to write & tell us about. That took some courage because you don't know how people here will react.

I have had some problems similar, but not matching , yours. I was helped when I found a psychiatrist who was patient & kind, gently encouraging & helping me to see how judgementally harsh I was being towards myself & helping me to understand how it's true, everyone makes mistakes & we can recover from those mistakes, learn & do better.

therefore, if you are not already seeing a therapist of some kind, I would suggest that you talk to your GP & ask them to help you find someone. There are various ways to engage with a therapist, so your GP is a good source of information & someone who can refer you to a therapist.

In the meanwhile, BB has a 24 hour counselling service, via the 'Chat Online' link below, or byphone on 1300 224 636.

& you are certainly very welcome to post here again.

mmeMekitty

[Johnny_]

Hi Lala, 

Firstly, thank you for sharing your story here for others to read…you’d be surprised how many people read these stories just to feel less alone in the same situation. It took courage to do that.

I can’t say I have been through the same thing as you, but i have experienced some of what you spoke of after I had a nervous breakdown. The anxiety, overwhelm, tension, breaking down and crying all the time…it sucks! and I wasn’t the best at expressing myself either so I hear you. 

I started to write in a diary, said what I wanted to say and it felt great! You can be soo expressive here and it’s yours! no one reads it…it’s just you. It feels empowering, it’s a great outlet. I also learnt for me, the tears released tension so I embraced them. I also sort therapy guided by my GP. it helps a lot but yes, the first step was hard, weird enough, I like it now…off loading feels great! 

I also do wim hof breathing and cold showers… you build up to full cold but it honestly has helped a lot. These Small steps got me to where I am today and maybe they’ll help you too.

be kind to yourself as your doing great! and reward yourself with something small too… one day at a time:) 

[jaz28]

Hi lala_lily,

I am sorry you are feeling this way but you are not alone, I have certainly felt this way out of the blue before. Have you seen a psychologist or your doctor about these feelings you are having? That might help you to work through this a bit easier, because it is entirely possible to overcome - trust me!

Jaz xx