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[Teatime21]

Hi

I'm in my twenties and recently moved to Australia as I thought it would make me happier. Before I came here I was so miserable, for a long time. Already away from family and friends at this point, living somewhere for work. Work was not much fun either. I thought I'd come to australia my dream, and focused all my energy on that. I thought I have already lived 3 years miserably and alone, I'll take the leap move to the other side of the world for a year.

At first it was fun whilst travelling around, although I felt awkward at times andknew I was still struggling, feeling I was a boring person and finding it hard to make the connections with others I could see others doing.

Now I am here for work, which is spaarce. I'm far away from home, I feel I don't have 1 person here who cares properly for me. I don't have anything to say when I speak to my mum on the phone and neither does she as I'm just quiet and irritable. I haven't the motivation to look for different work, feel I can't travel as I don't have the funds anymore but don't want to go home as I'll have wasted the opportunity and feel I don't have much to go back for as I quit my job and don't feel like I have any close friends.

I haven't been to a doctor and just don't want to even talk aloud or feel I even have the energy to explain my self to someone in person.

[quirkywords]

Teatime21

Welcome to the forum and thanks so much for sharing your story.

It is a huge upheaval to leave friends and family even if one is feeling well.

Travel can be lonely and difficult. Can you write down your feelings. When I was younger and was travelling overseas, I would write down how I was feeling as well as what I was doing and seeing.

Are there times when you have not felt awkward or not felt like your are struggling while you have been in Australia?

I am glad you have communicated your story .

Quirkywords

[Starwolf]

Welcome, Teatime.

Well done for acknowledging there is a problem and reaching out. A brave decision and wise first step.

Sometimes, when we feel miserable, the reaction is to get away from what we believe the problem is. Unfortunately, inner issues follow wherever we go. On the brighter side, it brings home the fact that the source of distress doesn't come from the outside. Inner work is required to improve a painful state of mind and help us move forward.

What you describe could be symptoms of depression. I'd suggest you do the K10 test (top left of this page in the Facts section). It will help pinpoint what you may be up against.

Struggling alone is too difficult and unnecessary. Booking a long GP appointment would be a start towards managing the situation and reclaiming some quality of life and peace of mind. I understand that face to face conversation can be too daunting. But openness and honesty are necessary for a proper diagnosis and suitable treatment. You could write down how you feel and what your concerns are, then hand those notes to your doctor. No need to feel embarrassed for a medical condition you are not to be blamed for. Just like diabetes for example, it will not go away on its own. No need to let it cast a shadow over every area of your life. You deserve a lot better than just letting it happen. So please take good care of yourself.

When conditions of living become difficult, it is necessary to take a courageous plunge. Not easy but well worth the effort in the long term. With help and support, your situation can and will improve.

If you decide to keep talking with us, you will be supported every step of the way. We'd love to know you a bit better.

Good to have you on board.