lonely, six walls most of my life :)

[Alisgh]

hi

I feel like the walls in my room are my prison, although i have goals my goals I now not realistic some stuff it is clear I would not have, since birth. sill living in these condition is prison to me.

I need stuff to grow like any other living thing but if I am limited then I reached the top of my life. I have one-thing that I want one is to be loved but no one would love object like ugly wood. unfortunately I am like piece of wood in the corner of the road. this is hard to live with when you have to love who you live with on this earth.

I can show good but this body sophisticated machine is lacking thing that it needs then until when my body can function. is it better to rest. cause no one is buying this human, no one want this, then is it better I change to what I can`t feel I am made of, water and organic compound can`t feel. so new life would take my place that is wanted, loved.

for me it is just time I wish goes quicker. but my biological clock tacking too long for me. now I feel like the living tell the time I no longer feel. then no one would hate that I do not be loved.

sincerely one who they call to be living

Ali

[Ggrand]

Hello Ali,

Welcome to the forums...This is a safe non judgemental place full of cars for each other..I’m pleased you have joined us..

Im sorry your struggling so much with your mental health..

Ali...you say you have goals but they are not realistic...Would you like to share some of your goals with us...only if you want to...

I have only 1 goal...it’s a goal that comes very easy for most people..It’s to be able to go for a walk on my own...Maybe sweety you’ve set your goals to high therefore they are hard to achieve...

Ali...I’m sorry you sound like you don’t like..A lot of people are so critical of our bodies...I think we see what we want to see, whiles others see us differently...I feel that people start loving us first...from what’s inside our heart/soul.. Ali that’s what really counts..that’s what genuine love for another person is all about...Please try not to be to hard on you lovely Ali...

We have a thread here..if you search for it in the search bar on top right hand corner of this page...The thread name is...”Do you like yourself”..it’s a great thread with many members talking about how they feel about themselves and how they are trying to like themselves...There’s so many good ideas on their...if you would like to check it out...

Please keep in touch here if you feel up to..looking forward to hearing from you when you feel ready..

Sending you my care, love and warm comfy hugs lovely Ali..

Grandy..