I’m new and nervous

[LQ23]

Hi I’m not sure where to start I’ve let the people I care about down and don’t know how to make it right

[LQ23]

Thank you MyLadyGirl the new job has said that a reference from other people would be ok so not sure where this will go! I’ve got my first session with a psychologist today so very nervous and don’t know where to start

[Aaronsis]

HI LQ23

I am so sorry that you didn't get the role and that you are feeling so very overwhelmed.

I would love to know how you go today with the psychologist and just a thought, if you are feeling anxious about not knowing where to start, you could perhaps just show them this post and that will give them a really good understanding of what has been going on and how you are feeling, you have talked and shared so well here.

I feel like though you could just purge and get out what is in your heart and how the events of the past have been effecting you.

I will be thinking of you today and wish you strength to get through your meeting, it is draining and scary but I hope you will feel so very good afterwards, and they will give you some tools to move forward.

Hugs to you

AS

[LQ23]

Thanks AS I e just finished my first session it was really good. He said to write everything down I’m feeling what happens and my goals and to take small steps as it will not happe. Overnight - to take my medication as that will assist with my clarity and let me focus on me

[Aaronsis]

Hi LQ23

I am so very happy to hear that your session went well, that is really great.

The doctor has given you some advice that I actually do too and find it so therapeutic and that is writing, writing down in a book how I am feeling and what is going on in my brain and heart and just dump it all on a piece of paper, you don't have to show anyone and you may never read it again but it is so wonderful to get it all out.

It won't heal miraculously overnight but it will hopefully help you on your way to feeling peace.

Taking your medication too is also a pretty good idea..but you know that.

Great that you are starting to make some progress and you are sounding much more sprightly this afternoon.

Cheers

AS

[MyLadyGirl]

Hello LQ23,

Glad to hear that everything went well at the doctor. It's a good idea of writing down your feelings in a book. I once did that and it really helped. It will helped you also. You should also write your hatred and depression too even what you feel about your job and your ex boss. It will slowly ease you pain slowly. What ever deep down that you are feeling write down. I hope it will change you.

I hope talking your medication does help you feel better.

So what did you today and how are you feeling?

[LQ23]

Hi MyLadyGirl it is comforting g to hear your words! I have started on depression anxiety medication it helps me sleep at night. I’m down at my parents house on the coast at the moment trying to clear my head. I still feel so anxious when things are brought up and I see things that trigger my thoughts so hope the medication kicks in and steers me in the right direction - I so live to hear from you guys it does make me feel better x

[LQ23]

Thank you AS it is so nice to talk to you and hear your words. I still feel so anxious and as I said to MyLadyGirl when I see things it triggers the bad but I try and focus on something else I just hope my medication kicks in to give some clarity thank you for listening x

[Aaronsis]

Hi LQ23

That is so wonderful to hear that you are on the coast and that you can have a change of scenery, hopefully that in itself will be great for you. I hope for you too that the medication kicks in soon and that you can start to feel some relief and some peace. It must be so very frustrating and so very scary when the situation is brought up again, however talking about it will make it a little less hurtful each time and hopefully help to process it and put it in the past. Like I said to you before, you are not your mistake and you have learnt and you are a good person.

I hope you have some beautiful things to focus on there with your parents and enjoy the time with them and be kind to yourself. You have been through so very much.

Hugs to you

AS

[MyLadyGirl]

Hello LQ23, I am happy that you are away from all that is happening to a place that is comforting you. It may not change the scenario of you feeling stress but at least it's a stepping stone.LQ23, may I asked what makes you feel comfortable of expressing your emotional feeling? Like for an example when I get very upset in situation, I drive to the beach and talk to myself saying how I feel with all my heart including negative emotional feelings and when I talked it out I talk what's disturbing me. It helped me in certain way. Do you have any preference or have you tried any? I know it sound strange. I know medication helps you with your emotional but have the GP gave you any recommendation or suggestion? I am sorry but only if you want to share.

[LQ23]

Hi MyLadyGirl I’ve been advised to go for walks which is a good thing. I’m now worried about the impact of what I’ve done is going to have on my daughter she has a good part time job at her old school coaching sports and hope that it doesn’t reflect bad on her - then there is her boyfriend - what I’ve done has such far reaching issues