Hello where_is_real_me, undersand completely what you have told us because sometimes even without a diagnosis, you know that you aren't feeling the way you should be and to try and explain how you feel to anybody is not agreed upon and told we're ridiculous.
People can pretend that they're OK but no one can fully pretend they haven't got depression of any type, well to a certain point this can happen, but then, what about wanting to stay in bed, not eating or crying at anything that moves or not communicating like you were once able to, so you can pretend in certain areas but not to the people you know, signs will show that something isn't right.
Try to write these thoughts down so when you do see your doctor they will understand what you're trying to tell them.
If you can do this in point form and I say this because if it's an essay they seem to get lost in all of it and miss the main points, include any triggers that may be a cause and your reactions to what's happened.
If your health hasn't been good this can lead onto many other issues, especially if no one else has experienced this themselves, like wasting away is a great concern.
We are here for you so please get back when you feel confident enough to trust us.
Best wishes.
Geoff.
