Chronic Depression, Anxity, PTSD, and eating disorder.

[JustALittleConfused_Lost]

Hi, this is something new for me, I'm scared to leave the house and see a counciler or something similar because I've tried many before in the past. Long story short, my depression and anxiety has come back & it's scary Some days. I live alon so I don't have someone to go to to distract me from the demons inside my mind, so I use music. I tried picking up old hobbies, but I stuggle to enjoy much. I was wondering if someone might be able to give me some advice on what I should do. I've tried different medication in the past as well. But I couldn't mind one that suited my life style. I've lost my job and struggling to find myself to being able to work again for a long time. I like working but my mind will play games on me & telling me I'm not good enough and I can't do it. It's like a have a devil inside of me that likes to see me hurt. It sounds silly but I don't know how else to put it. I'm sorry, thank you.

[BballJ]

Hi JustALittleConfused&Lost ,

I can relate to your post, whenever I am alone my mind runs wild and the overthinking goes into overdrive so I know the feeling. It is hard when you live alone without a distraction and like you, I use music to help ease my mind, do you find it helps?

You said you are scared to leave the house to see a counsellor, is this because you have seen so many before to no real benefit? Is it possible you just haven't found the right one as it can take some time to find a counsellor you actually connect with and can be open and up front with?

None of this sounds silly and it really isn't easy going through all of this but you do need to seek the appropriate help by a trained professional as well I feel.

Please remember you can call the Beyond Blue helpline on 1300 22 4636 24/7 to discuss anything you are going through.

Please, post back as much as you like, we are always happy to talk.

My best for you,

Jay