Anxiety & Panic disorder seeking some advice or experiences

[Gibbo13]

Newbie here,

long story cut short this may seem cliche and/or unbelievable to some but hear me out.

in 2004 I was in year 8, in class a mate told me to listen to this song which apparently gave you the urge of commiting suicide, being young and dumb I thought “hey why not must be fake”.

listened to the first 10 seconds and ripped the earphones out like no tomorrow, ever since then my mental health went down hill for 4 years then it was neutral. It’s extremely hard to explain what I felt however after that ordeal I felt something in my head pushing me to do something, I felt extreme panic and everything that goes with it. The thing is I had no thought of wanting to kill myself.

2010 is when it all started to come back again, I didn’t want to be in tall buildings, shopping centre top levels, aircrafts or anything relating to heights. Another thing popped out of nowhere and that was the feeling of escape when I was front passenger of a car on a motorway/highway.

my worst scenarios were aeroplanes, which was a requirement of my job and still is.

i have no fear of crashing or turbulence but the fact that I’m enclosed in a cabin, 30,000ft in the sky and have absolutely no chance of just getting out for fresh air is what freaks me out and sends the anxiety to an extreme level mentally. Now I haven’t gone nuts in the plane but I’ve been extremely uncomfortable with the thought of “I can’t do anything I need to get out” running through my head and what kills more is that everyone else is okay and what not and I’m the only one there struggling to keep sane. I’ve been with my fiancé for 11 years and she’s gone overseas 5 times with out me because of this and that kills me because it’s the one thing I can’t do with her and we do everything together.

ive tried anti depressants prescribed, therapy and breathing techniques but they only work 5% of the time. I’m thinking of hypnosis but I’m happy to listen to what people have done if you’ve gone though it. Thanks

[white knight]

Hi gibbo, welcome

Yes, all too familiar I'm afraid. Triggers that spark off things.

I had an event in our backyard swimming pool with my brother when I was 12. I didnt talk for 3 months, got all melancholy and didnt make a connection until 53yo when my psychiatrist questioned me at length about my childhood.

As a prison officer I developed a fear of blood in 1979. In 1992 I had a small injury on my arm which bled badly. I said to myself "its only red coloured water"...bingo- no more fear.

Another example that might interest you is a workplace incident where my honesty and integrity was questioned. What followed was a fear of shopping centres, queues, crowds, elevators.

So we know that triggers exist. But the human mind works in mysterious ways. Some people need psychiatric care to combat these things.

So you are not alone but your fears are unique to you with some similarity with others.

Intrusive or unrealistic thoughts really need professionsl medical care.

I have a list below of threads Ive written that might help. Some things you already do thats fine. Just read the first post of each thread if that suits.

Use google

Topic: how I eliminated anxiety- beyondblue

Topic: meditation- Maharaji words of wisdom he helped me for 25 years- beyondblue

Topic: meltdown back to basics- beyondblue

Topic: running around trying to save the world- beyondblue

Topic: accepting yourself, the frog and the scorpion- beyondblue

Topic: fortress of survival- beyondblue

Topic: depression triggers- beyondblue

Topic: how natural is your depression?- beyondblue

Topic: who cares for the carer?- beyondblue

TonyWK

[demonblaster]

Hi Gibbo & White

Listening td yaz both.

White about the blood, sounds like what I've been doing lately, hard no nonsense self talk, allowing the logical side in. Very well done. A win

Gibbo the brain has to have whatever thoughts (info from Psychologist yrs ago) we get effected by how we react to them. Stress is pump for activity or thinking but unused or no outlet churns us up. Needs out of the body this is an outlet as I see it how anxious you get. Could be wrong but makes sense I reckon

You know how you feel so I guess think about how you want to feel & focus on that. Try not to avalanche with the downers. Hard but it is now too. Can get better

You're bloody brave sticking with planes you've got plenty of strength there (Y)