Hello Bluepearl3
I can tell you, I have stopped using antidepressants, But, a very important 'but', is I did it with the help of my Psychiatrist, who advised & monitored me throughout the tapering off period. I understood there could (& were) some effects to cope with while decreasing the dosages. It' was not very easy either.
& I hadn't been using antidepressants nearly as long as you have. So, I would suggest you at least, talk to your GP & see if they can help or to find you someone who can talk with you more about what it would mean to stop using the antidepressants - even before beginning, if that is what you decide. It really is more complicated than it might seem.
I see you've been through a lot in your life, so talking to someone about that would also help. While you spent a lot of time & effort 'coping', I wonder how much time & effort you took to examine & deal with the unhappiness & grief in your life?
As I was reading what you said was going on, I asked myself, why not be angry at the way your your ex-husband had been treating you? Don't you know you have a right to feel angry?
Did I feel like that, too, (but not in the same kinds of relationships), during my life? Yes, I had. I went on saying nothing for a long, long time & I gained nothing & got nowhere.
Your daughter-in-law can be selfish all she wants, & you can have an opinion about it, but she is an adult, so, only if her actions are hurtful to someone else, I'd not be too concerned about mentioning what you think. I mean, how does one tell someone they are being selfish without them perceiving an insult or criticism?
Life doesn't have to be so flat & without excitement. This is your life, now. You can make changes to suit you. You can go out & make friends as you please. As the saying goes, 'the world is your oyster'. After so long in an unhappy marriage, you may also find help talking to someone about 'what now?' What can the future look like for you, now?
Hugzies
mmMekitty
