Recently diagnosed with bpd and more

[Longroadahead]

Hi i have recently been diagnosed with bpd, antisocial issues, ptsd, extremely severe stress, extremely severe depression and severe anxiety. Im in qld and have been told medication is useless for bpd. I need to do dbt therapy so i have been told. My doc is trialing me on medication. Not seeing much difference. Its really difficult to keep going as the pressure of what lies ahead is too much. I fight hard everyday to keep going for my kids. But im so tired and drained. The scary thought is bpd never goes away and i have to be strong enough to try and manage it.

Thanks for reading

[james1]

Hi longroadahead,

Welcome to the forums! It sounds like you've been dealt quite the blow with the diagnosis!

I've got symptoms of BPD and the scariest thing for me is looking back to see all the things I've done, and realising just how pervasive my symptoms really are.

That said, I'm coming to terms with bits of it. I'm not so worried anymore about the idea because while it's a personality disorder so it's part of you, everything has two sides. For example, I hope to be able to find my identity and mirror people less, but until then, I'll keep building on my library of experiences. I also want to be less attached to people, but my style also gives me hope that if I can maintain a healthy attachment style, I'm a pretty likeable person.

Like you said, it's super tiring and draining. But I really really think and hope that the DBT can help manage the bad sides of your symptoms, to help you find a good balance as you go around.

I'm still super rocky because it's only been about 6 months, but the biggest change for me is just being able to recognise what I do which other people wouldn't do.

Sorry I hope that helps/makes sense. Today is a strange mental day for me.

James

[pipsy]

Hi Longroadahead. You must have felt like you'd been hit with a sledgehammer being told you had bpd, plus. I guess you also feel it's something you have done that's caused it. That feeling is normal, ptsd, bpd, severe anxiety, severe stress, severe depression is all in the same category and usually caused by something traumatic and nothing you could've done would've stopped it. The medication you're taking, were you given any advice as to side-effects, how long before you start responding/feeling better etc. If you are feeling worried or concerned, I suggest you go back to your Dr or whoever prescribed the medication and ask for advice about it. If it is AD's, they normally can take up to 2 weeks before you start noticing anything in the way of relaxation or coping better. I also feel telling your Dr you are concerned about the mental health issues as far as your kids are concerned. Trying to explain anything to do with mental health is difficult, kids sometimes just need to know mum or dad isn't well at the moment. Tell them if they see you crying, that you are having a 'down' day. How old are your kids? Kids can be pretty amazingly supportive if they know mum or dad needs a hug or just 'time out'. I suffer depression and sometimes I have those days when everything that can go wrong, appears to. My kids although they are grown up now, always seemed to know when to leave me alone and when not to.

Lynda

[Longroadahead]

Thanks for the reply. Its comforting knowing other people are going through similar problems. Ive always been strong minded but in the last month its fading. I have researched as much as i can so i too can see my issues as they arise. Problem is i cant stop them. But it has been great knowing why i do what i do

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi Longroadahead,

Welcome to the forums and thanks for joining us.

There's been some great replies already so I won't add to much more except to say that even though you've been recently diagnosed, my guess is you've probably been dealing with this for a while. The fact that you've now been diagnosed and looking at DBT is such a good step in the right direction.

Another thing to point out is that you said it will never go away. This is true; there is no cure, but what's going on for you may not always impact you like it does now. It might just linger in the background sometimes; like how a person with Diabetes can have a good quality of life except they need to be aware of their sugar levels, or a person with Epilepsy who just needs to be aware of their triggers and take medication. No cure doesn't mean a bad quality of life.

Hope that you'll keep posting; feel free to search or browse around to find other posts that might relate to yours.