Please Help!! Breech of Confidentiality

[Kombie390]

Long story short. I am a CSA and DV survivor. The only people who know about my history are my counsellors. Out of the blue late last week I received a call from a detective from the local police station in my area asking me to confirm a report they had received from an unknown source. This detective had precise details about my abusers only souls on Earth that know are my professional helpers. I have asked them and of course they all deny making any contact with the police. Since then I feel extremely unsafe which I am sure is also a bit of paranoia within myself and also anyone around me. I have few friends and my professional support that's it no family support. Now I have lost all trust in everyone including me. I don't even know if this is the right place to be asking for such help but I want to know if there is any way I can request an investigation into my health records or am I just needing to accept this has happened and move on. I wanted to be the one to one day make this report to the police, myself, in my own time and AGAIN someone has taken my power away from me. I don't want to talk anymore to any of these people I don't want to work with them I want to walk away from everyone isolate and hide away to protect myself against any further harm. I am angry with someone but I don't know who to be angry with. I feel so let down and betrayed by someone. Running away feels more safer and comfortable then facing this reality. I want silence. I can't get that here.

[Guest_1643]

Hi Kombie, that sounds terrible

your sense of safety is truly so important and now it is not being respected.

I wis I could help more...

i'm not aware of the rights of patients etc so i wish i could be more clear but i'm not sure how one approaches that....i hope others here will know more clearly about the rights you have and what you can find out.

I was just wandering if calling 1800 Respect you may find a counsellor who knew the answers to this - when your call is taken you are able to request to be connected to a specialist counsellor, who may have more knowledge

sorry you are struggling and feeling unsafe...

I can only access that sense of safety briefly in my day, sometimes I rest for a few moments in my car, read on a train, or do meditation and honestly they are the only moments I feel safe.
I do honour and recognise how important it is to feel safe and understand why you need that so much.
Sending you care and compassion for this time

[Kombie390]

Thank you Sleepy21. That is a good suggestion. I will contact the 1800 respect number and talk with them.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Kombie390,

We're so sorry to hear about what you've gone through. We understand that this has left you feeling confused, angry, and betrayed. Please know that we in this community are here to listen to you and support you. We hope that you feel this is a safe space and that our words can offer you some comfort.

We always urge people like yourself not to be put off accessing help by a negative experience. If you feel that requesting your records from your providers would help bring you a better feeling of security, it might be worth considering. We understand that it is important to have a good sense of trust with your healthcare providers. 

If you feel that it would be helpful to talk through this experience and get some advice,  please, contact us anytime on 1300 22 4636 or get in touch with us on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST here: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport 

Feel free to keep us updated here on what you're experiencing whenever you feel up to it.
 

[Guest_1643]

Hi Kombie!!

Hope you are doing okay, just saying hello

[Kombie390]

I do appreciate your support plus the suggestion of contacting beyond blue to talk about my issues further. Right now I am put off. In the last few days any sessions I've had I have cancelled or cancelled future one's. I feel so lost.

[Kombie390]

Hey Sleepy21... No I'm not ok. Nothing feels ok at all. I don't know what I'm meant to be doing anymore

[Sophie_M]

Hi Kombie390,

We can hear that you're in a dark place at the moment. We're so sorry to hear that you are feeling so lost and put off seeking help. We would urge that you do, and ask whatever questions necessary to make you feel more comfortable in the helping relationship.

In case you are interested, there is a thread with someone who was feeling similarly, although it is not the same situation: "Bad experience with therapist. Having to go without a therapist for a while. Not coping overly well." -
https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/treatments-health-professionals-and-therapie...

Our friends at Lifeline are up 24/7 as well if you need to talk it through -
. Lifeline - 13 11 14 

We hope that you feel this is a safe space. Please tell us more about what's on your mind and how we can best support you through this, whenever you feel up to it.

[Kombie390]

Thanks for sharing that previous thread with me Sophie_M I did have a read it was great this person found a better professional to help them.
I am feeling particularly trapped in my own head the thoughts are slowly drowning me. I do appreciate the numbers for both beyond blue and lifeline. Right now for self punishing reasons I don't feel remotely worthy to call either service even writing this reply out I don't know why I am bothering when I hate myself for feeling the way I am.

[Nurse_Jenn]

HI Kombie390,

How are you going? It has been a few days since you posted here and was just wanting to check in to see if you were feeling like you were feeling a little less trapped in your own head as you had mentioned in your post? Going round and round in your thinking can be exhausting. I am sorry you are going through a tough time at the moment.

Sometimes having a chat can really make a difference. If you feel comfortable, keep posting and writing here. It is a safe place to let out some of your frustrations and worries. Or as Sophie_M mentioned, Lifeline on 13 11 14 can really helpful when you are not feeling your best.

Sending you strength,

Nurse Jenn