My experience with medication

[4x4]

So quick bit of background. So suffered from depression and anxiety for about 12 years now, problem is i didn't know much about it or that was my problem. Refused to believe anything was wrong for a very long time. I started to wake up to the fact that there were issues, but i didn't want to confront them. Things and feelings i had never talked about were ruining my life and i was deteriorating fast. Affecting my family, friendships, work, ect.

Took me ages to get the courage to see a doctor then psychologist, tried various therapy with small success. Eventually tried Anti-depressants, only been a short while on them, but wow i accully feel alive, feel like everything isn't to hard. I feel like i needed that helping hand up first step, now I'm on way to recovery.

I was really against idea of medication, but after bit of reading and research thought I'll give it a go, if doesn't work at least i know if it would of helped or not. I won't say that everyone should just try them, one I'm not a expert and two everyone is different.

the best example for me. Its like the car is bogged, you need someone to pull you out of the mud (medication) and then your the rest of the journey therapy and myself will get me to my destination.

[PamelaR]

Hello 4x4 welcome to Beyond Blue

Thank you so much for sharing your story about your recovery. Lovely to hear it's going well for you. I can relate to your car getting bogged analogy. I often use the washing machine as an analogy. It's good to be able to relate how you are to the things around you.

Keep posting if and when you need to.

Kind regards

PamelaR

[bigstar]

Congratulations. I'm one of those people who didn't realize something was wrong with me for a very long time. And I waited till I was nothing but a husk of a human before I decided to get on medication; but I think the damage is done.

Here is another analogy. If my 'self' was a house and anxiety / depression was the fire, I waited till the fire had basically reduced my house to smouldering ashes before I knew it was time for medication. Unfortunately a lot of the damage has been done and recovery is extremely difficult but I have gotten better with meds... not sure they'll undo the horror that I witnessed internally. I got on AD's two months and felt like my old self but I'm slipping back into the void again and so they've just upped my dose and I hope to god that works because I'm getting really tired of fighting this beast.

Thanks for the story though, a lot of people have an anti-anti-depressant attitude (LOL) but really it is the same as someone who has diabetes thinking they'll be able to 'think themselves' out of insulin. I'm glad you had the open mind to get onto the meds early on before your sickness did any more damage. And thanks for sharing your story.