Dear adnileeram,
I'm shocked that you're shocked as most disabling injuries or illnesses carry a certain "Why Me ?" quality. Going from "Why Me ?" to "Being Angry About Me Being Sick" isn't a big change. Probably on a par with "Shall I have a kit kat ?" to "Nah, I'll take a twix". We have certain pressures from family/friends and imploding with our feelings is probably safer than exploding. Well, that's the theory.
Maybe it's not so much "hate themselves" as are hard on themselves. The expectation to snap out of it and sing Supercalifragilisticexpealiocous" isn't too far from the truth. And how could a "normal" person possible get their perception of mental illness wrong ? I mean, aren't they sane ones ?
Instead of self hatred try humour. "So, you nearly killed yourself again ?" / "Bloody well picked up a blunt knife !". If you ever read tales of adventure or epic accounts of the war the ammount of humour that is used is exponential. If you're running ragged and the world is against you sometimes, then even saying, with pure sarcasm and wit, "Might make baked beans on toast tonight, treat me self for a change" seems to bring some comic relief. After all, irony doesn't hurt as much.
Adios, David.
PS That's if you can break the hurt for a second. Beat the odds for a sec.
