Hello. I am currently seeing a psychologist for fortnightly therapy
sessions. I have had about six sessions so far. I like this
psychologist, and feel he will be helpful to me. Previously I have not
felt that any professional I have seen was able to ...
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Hello. I am currently seeing a psychologist for fortnightly therapy
sessions. I have had about six sessions so far. I like this
psychologist, and feel he will be helpful to me. Previously I have not
felt that any professional I have seen was able to help, so this is a
miraculous new thing to me and I want to make sure I make the most of
the opportunity. I am autistic, and have depression and anxiety -
specifically social anxiety. I have come to realise that this is in part
due to being autistic, and struggling with communication - it is quite
natural to be anxious when you literally don't understand what is going
on or what is expected of you, and have often been criticised for the
way you speak or your 'incorrect' facial expressions. My psychologist is
very experienced with autism, which helps. There are two main questions,
I suppose. One: What else can I do in between therapy sessions to
further my own work and recovery? I have talked about this with my
psychologist and asked for book recommendations - which I have ordered,
and will read - and I have ongoing homework to record dreams, write
three "positive" things each day, and write down any other thoughts I
want to. I have been reading other books on my own too, based on
recommendations/reviews either online or from friends. I have also
started bush walking, most days - as everything I read about depression
emphasises the importance of physical exercise. Two: What can I do in
session to improve my ability to relax and communicate? I get extremely
anxious, especially at the beginning, and this impairs my ability to
speak. I also have trouble speaking verbally under stress or pressure
(and my brain interprets questions as both of those things...). Even
when I CAN speak verbally, I often revert to sarcasm and defensiveness
when panicked, and then get disappointed with myself for "wasting" the
session - because I'd really rather speak authentically and honestly -
but this is very hard for me to do. I have spoken (or rather, written)
to my psychologist about this, and the anxiety has improved over time,
somewhat, with my various efforts... but I am very open to hearing new
ideas or strategies. One thing I tried yesterday in session was writing
"BREATHE" in green (my favourite colour) on the inside of my wrists, so
that as I was fidgeting in front of my face (as I do every session, to
manage anxiety) the reminder to breathe was right there in my face. It
did help, and I will do this from now on.