help applying for dsp with psychosis
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hi, first post. registered with this question in mind. ive only recently turned 18 years old, and after going through about 5 years of different doctors, im here. i have what i think is a diagnosis of anxiety/depression/psychosis (thats what my docto... View more
hi, first post. registered with this question in mind. ive only recently turned 18 years old, and after going through about 5 years of different doctors, im here. i have what i think is a diagnosis of anxiety/depression/psychosis (thats what my doctor wrote on my centrelink medical certificate... ive never been told this to my face, but i can infer) it was a big relief and a massive discouragement, finally something that is real, i have an excuse for the way im acting, but now i have to face the stigma within my family, myself, everyone i meet, and even psychiatrists and doctors. it began when i was around 13/14 and steadily got worse, was often confused with dissociation (a hospital diagnosed me with dp/dr, but i dont think that stuck) with no improvements despite lots of counselling and therapy. ive taken medication for psychosis and anxiety, the first worked but disabled me in other ways, the latter does as much as a sugar pill. therapy never helped either, all my improvement has been done by myself alone, im a fairly rational person, diagnosis notwithstanding, and i know how to handle myself. therapy just got me out of the house, and i dont want to waste my time with it. anyway... my question is what to expect applying for dsp. i cant work, i was kicked out of school, i cant even wash myself anymore. moving out alone will help me. lots of people think this will make me worse, but being near other people is usually what stops me from eating/cleaning/being. i cant pick up the phone, shower, or look normal most of the time. a therapist described me once looking like a kicked puppy. and i talk weird. pressure of speech and alogia. it doesnt come off over text, thankfully >-o OK!! what im mostly worried about is, psychosis isnt really a diagnosis, i dont think by centrelinks standards. i was just discharged from a psychosis care clinic, so i would need a new doctor to be diagnosed. most doctors arent very keen on diagnosing a psychotic disorder until they know you for very long (approx 6 months i think), but i dont want therapy! i dont need it, i just need money to be alive. i have youth allowance, but it cant pay rent. i have a pretty heavy case of medical imposter syndrome (not malingering! i just struggle to believe myself even when faced with evidence), its already hard to force myself to admit that its not a phase. im worried ill de-exaggerate and make things worse, but i dont want to... over-exaggerate and look like a liar. do u have any advice?
