Feeling violated by treatments
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I have suffered with depression & cognitive deficits for the past 2 years since a mild traumatic brain injury. This injury has turned my world upside down with unknown future implications. I have lost my job, my career, my identity, my home. Depressi... View more
I have suffered with depression & cognitive deficits for the past 2 years since a mild traumatic brain injury. This injury has turned my world upside down with unknown future implications. I have lost my job, my career, my identity, my home. Depression (& SI) seems a perfectly rational response to me. Over the past 2 years I have been hospitalised multiple times (usually involuntarily), been diagnosed with as many psychiatric illnesses as professionals I’ve seen (all based on nothing more than subjective observation & most not resonating at all), subjected to lengthy rounds of ECT & made to take countless medications that proved completely useless in curing let alone helping me. Whenever I’ve questioned “why” re a diagnosis or treatment I’ve been labelled as having no insight or being narcissistic thinking I know better than my doctors. My cognition has now improved to the point that I can read again. In my reading I am discovering evidence from expert psychiatrists & researchers regarding the harmful effects of ECT (that it is basically causes brain damage to the frontal cortex which accounts for my trouble with some higher executive functioning that wasn’t evident pre ECT) & that antidepressants aren’t any more clinically significantly effective than sugar pills in treating the “chemical imbalance” of depression (a theory that the World Health Organisation among others has refuted for many years due to lack of scientific evidence) & are basically neurotoxins that lead to long term physical changes to brain structure. And don’t get me started on the violation of my human rights being involuntarily detained in hospital. We don’t detain medical patients who refuse treatment so why do it to a psych patient? I feel completely violated. These so called treatments have created an almost PTSD state in me. I have faith in the “talk therapy” I get with my psychologist but I have completely lost confidence in the pseudo scientific treatments dished out by psychiatrists. All they have done is delay my recovery by refusing to entertain the idea that I might actually have a brain injury (which has now been diagnosed) requiring cognitive rehab. Now to hope that 2 years down the track isn’t too late for correct treatment. Ovait