Sense of loss after last session with psychologist
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I had my last session with my psychologist on Friday as she is taking extended leave. I was feeling ready for a break, I had been going almost weekly for the best part of this year. Coming into the session I knew there would be change and I was feeli... View more
I had my last session with my psychologist on Friday as she is taking extended leave. I was feeling ready for a break, I had been going almost weekly for the best part of this year. Coming into the session I knew there would be change and I was feeling ready, slightly sad it was ending for now. After the session I caught the bus to work, on the way a song came on the radio that I hadn't heard for more than 15 years but I immediately connected with it and became very emotional - quite sad. At work, several long term colleagues were leaving that day for jobs overseas. One of them I was relatively close to. More emotion, but it was my relationship with the psychologist that I felt an overwhelming sense of loss for. I have been to several psychologists before, the last one over 10 years ago and for a longer period but I didn't feel this way when it ended. This time I feel a very deep sense of loss that I am struggling to come to terms with. I don't have any romantic feelings toward her or anything like that but I guess I hadn't realised how much I had opened up or that we had connected. The reaction has completely blindsided me. I didn't even feel this coming until the day of the last session. It is like losing a best friend to a far away place, the support and understanding that you are used to is suddenly no longer. As a result now I feel a bit fragile. I'm not sure how normal this is and I guess I feel a bit lost with it all. Perhaps I wasn't ready for a break, while I know it will pass I feel very lost with it all. Have others found this?