My son is 10 and has been struggling with his feelings for about 4 years.
He has suicidal thoughts and gets very angry (very quickly) and struggles with anything that is disappointing/not perfect. Despite seeing a psychiatrist for 18 months now he doesn’t seem to be getting any better. School has been brilliant. They have been really understanding and know that if they exclude him it is reinforcing his perception that he is worthless so they rarely send him home unless they really have to.
He recently ran away from school. I picked him up on the road and I got him home. He then lost it and smashed virtually every window in the house by throwing bricks through them. I called the police as I was terrified of him hurting himself or me. The police and ambulance eventually took him off to the women and children’s emergency hospital He was so frightened. I feel awful about calling the police but I was terrified.
i thought once he got to hospital they would see how bad things have got and help him but sadly I realised they just don’t have any facilities for children this age. He is now home (it happened on Wednesday) but last night he got in another rage and (re)smashed one of the windows. Luckily this time my husband was here so he was able to get hold of him and prevent more damage. I am not sure what to do. I am not sure how to handle it all. We have another son (11) who is really good but I feel so sad for him - this is not a good childhood for him.
We don’t have family here (we are from UK) so we are on our own and have no respite. It’s all pretty awful. I don’t expect anyone to be able to help here I guess I just wanted to get it off my chest.
i am ‘used to’ mental health issues as I grew up with a sister who has bipolar so have been through a lot of ups and downs over the years. Having a son with issues - especially going into such rages - is just something else though. I am pretty strong but I fear it is breaking me and I am struggling to know how to help him. I and so sad. My heart breaks. 😢
