Thank you, PPE.
No, nothing beyond a friendly hello, goodbye hug occasionally. My wife shuns all contact with me, except when I'm dropping her at the hospital. I don't even know if that's genuine or an act for the care staff.
Last night I was relegated to the spare room (as normal - we've kept separate bedrooms for some time now) although it was her first night home from hospital in weeks, in favour of our son sharing the bed. That has made me extremely angry & upset, but she can't see why. I don't feel I can talk to her about it though as;
a) She is not capable of mature thinking these days. She thinks she is, but it's all emotional, like a small child.
b) it'll just start a fight that I simply cannot be bothered with having. Plus I'm worried where it would end.
c) I worry greatly that giving her some home truths from my perspective will set her back quite heavily. (A large part of her depression is guilt)
She' always happy to cuddle our son - as am I - who's very affectionate & loves to cuddle. Obviously that's not the same for me, and besides he's getting to an age where I feel it's less appropriate, for me at least.
Maybe be one of those support groups would help a bit.
At the moment I just feel - like a few others have posted - desperate for some adult affection & company.
