Gf has depression

[Jiglez]

So my gf has depression and I think it could be affecting me. We have been together for over a year now which has been good for most parts of it.

The person I was 2 year's ago had some sort of passion and desires but now it's all gone down the drain (now I don't know if I was depressed beforehand or not but I've always had numbing feeling which probably doesn't help)

Anyway my gf has even noticed little things either it me just not seeming happy or me just staring at a wall for a while.

I feel like her depression could be rubbing on me. I have been trying my hardest to support and help in anyway I can but it seems like nithing.

I feel like I'm struggling here from supporting her to supporting myself. It all seems like too much work for me. I'm trying to keep up but I can't

Sometimes I wish could just run away

I feel like depression could be creeping up on me and hard. I feel like I'm lost and tired of everything.

Now I am the kinda person that "soldiers on" and feels solid but I think I'm breaking.

Going to talk to a professional isn't my first choice, hence why I'm on here. If anyone could help me on what to do that would be appreciated

[Croix]

Dear Jiglez~

Welcome here to the Forum. It's not a bad choice you made, coming to see waht others think before taking action, however your description of turning from a person with passions and desires to someone who has lost those feelings, plus has the need to escape, and is struggling make it clear something has gone very wrong.

Its one of those things, to help someone else you have to be in a good place yourself, and by the sounds of it you are not. As a result can I suggest you do seek professional help. People become ill for all sots or reasons and going to hte doctor should be second nature.

This is no different. If you booked a long appointment with your GP and explained all that has happened, how you have changed, and how you feel now that can be a pretty good start.

I kept on getting worse until I had the proper medical help. Often one simply cannot 'cure oneself, it take others too. Soldiering on only goes so far -that was my mistake and I ended up worse than I need have been if I'd got help earlier.

I hope this helps, please come back and say what you think

Croix