Hi Di76,
Welcome to our valued community forums. You have posted to the correct forum, and it's okay if you don't - these forums are moderated, and our moderation team will send you a private message to let you know if they need to relocate your thread.
We're glad that you came here as an outlet. We're so sorry to hear that you have lost your sister, and the hurt that you are going through as a result. Loss can be so painful, and the resulting grief can be different for everyone - you're not alone in this. You might be interested in our page on "Grief and Loss” -
https://www.beyondblue.org.au/the-facts/grief-and-loss
Can we ask if you have received any mental health support to help you through this painful loss? You might be interested in getting in touch with
Griefline - 1300 845 745. GriefLine provides counselling support services free of charge to individuals who are experiencing loss and grief.
You may also be interested in our page on "Self harm and self injury", which provides some insight on why you might be self harming. You also might find it useful for ideas on how to find less harmful coping methods -
https://www.beyondblue.org.au/the-facts/suicide-prevention/feeling-suicidal/self-harm-and-self-injur...
Thank you so much for reaching out here and sharing your story. Many in our community have had similar experiences and can relate. Hopefully a few will reach out here to welcome you over the next few days.
