Hi Centaured
So triggering. I really feel for you. How frustrating and disappointing.
Is there something you can do with your time while you're in there? On your phone or laptop can you use this time as a period of research, for example? Is there anything that interests you that's worth researching, in your opinion? Could you use it as a period of education/self development?
Personally, I can't tolerate waiting. I've kind of conditioned myself, to some degree, not to 'wait' wherever possible. An example I can think of off the top of my head involves my mum. I take her to a lot of appointments with specialists. You can imagine there's a heck of a lot of waiting around while she's in with them. I try not to waste my time waiting, so I may choose to look around and pay attention to detail - the environment, people, sounds etc. I might use my time for education purposes: I'm an information junkie so I'll read informative books or access informative websites. Sometimes I might instead listen to the radio to see if I can pick up lyrics I may have missed in the past or see if I can hear the instrumental side more.
If waiting was defined as 'time to focus on things you normally wouldn't take the time to focus on', how would you spend this time? Has there been something nagging at you when it comes to doing a bit of research and now you've got the time to look into it, without distraction? If you were to channel the sage in you, what does the sage suggest you research?
I've heard it jokingly said before 'A patient is called a patient for good reason. They are forced to be patient, based on all the waiting around'.
