Tell us your thoughts - What's kept or keeping you here?

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi everyone,

This is not an easy thread to make but I'm doing it because I think it's important.

I can see that you're all hurting and I know because I'm hurting too. Right now I'm in an easier place but it wasn't that long ago where I wasn't. Often we can find lots of reasons why we don't want to be here, and very few reasons that we do. So I'm making this post to bring everyone together to either find reasons to stay or show me why you've stayed. I don't care whether they are small or big reasons. They are reasons.

Please feel free to post below because I want to hear yours, and I want this to be a thread where people who come here can grab onto a reason too.

The reasons why I chose to stay -

- My dogs.

- Planning to die was very complicated.

- I wanted to hold on just in case things got a little bit better.

and now, I'm glad that I stayed. Please know that while suicide will end the pain, it will end your life too - so you'll say goodbye to any opportunities that things might get better. Opportunities for laughter, joy and beautiful memories. Sometimes it's about staying with the pain and finding other ways to let go of it without saying goodbye to our life.

[Guest9337]

for me today, breathing itself is painful. I will keep doing breathing of course!

my thoughts are empty of selfharm or suicide but I still suffer much today

[gucia6]

what kept me here in the past?

First time it was my own miserable reflection in the mirror and miraculously passing thought, that I have power to change things

Second time my pregnancy.

Since then my kids.

Now there are times that I feel I am continuing for myself. Thanks to treatment, thanks to people who accepted me with my problems. And discovering my true self feels like adventure sometimes

[Guest_1643]

Welcome tiane

M really sorry u have had such a difficult time. I hope we can help in some small way here at BB, here to listen

[Emo]

Hi Everyone,

I hope that everyone is going OK during these times. I'm really fragile at this moment as my cancer has spread even further. They have found more lumps in my neck affecting my speech due to the placement of them.There is talk of me losing my ability to speak, I can't lie, I'm really scared.

I'm just so tired and sore but I'm trying to fight the feelings of ending my life as I need to find some good out of my cancer. I hope I don't cry all day today. Its so overwhelming.

Thank you for listening, I don't deserve anyone's care and concern but I'm really grateful that I have a place like this to open up. I'd better go.

Regards,

Emo.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Emo,
  We can hear there's a lot going on right now. This must be an incredibly scary time, but we're glad you could share this here. 

We are reaching out to you directly, but please know that our counsellors here for you on 1300 22 4636, or via webchat here. There's also Lifeline on 13 11 14 and the Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467. You are deserving of care and concern, and no one should ever make you feel otherwise. Please reach out to 1800 RESPECT on 1800 737 732 or via webchat.

Our counsellors are here for you, and this community does not want you to feel alone or unsafe, so please know there is care for you here. 

Kind regards,

Sophie M

[Whysosad]

Hi Emo, I am sad to hear about your situation, I would be fearful also, anyone would. You are important, you matter!!! You deserve love and care. Be gentle on your self. Being human can be so hard, so if at the day's end your safe in bed, you have been successful. One day at a time. I think you are very brave for sharing your story, love and hugs to you,.

[Rupes79]

What do you tell yourself when you’ve run out of things that are keeping you here?

When you think of death as the solution to all your problems?

[Mk2692]

Hi Rupes79,

I would tell myself I am here for a reason, I might not know yet what the reason is, but there is a good reason why i am here. I will try to find that reason, strive in every step i take because I am important and I am valued. If you do have a family, I would say family is one big reason to stay and fight through. Life is hard sometimes, but it also is full of a lot of blessings, there are ups and downs, we just have to get through the downs to find the ups. I believe we are all here to help each other in away and make a positive impact, we are all important and we are all loved by someone. Trying your best and fighting through is the best solution, because better things will always come eventually.

[Baljit]

Hi Everyone,

Family and me, are the main reasons for me.

This is because I have learnt to start loving myself, others loving me and I am worthy of being loved and loving others…

Receive and share “The ❤️“

Baljit

[Doolhof]

Hi Rupes,

Wish I had an answer for you!

Maybe you could consider what your problems are and how you might be able to work through them, accept them or live with them for a while.

Some one once told me I didn't really want to be dead, I wanted and escape form all I was experiencing.

They didn't have any answers either as to how to achieve a greater sense of wanting to live.

I'm trying to work on ways to not let the despair be so overwhelming that death does seem like the only answer.

Today I am going to move wheelbarrow loads of mulch onto the garden. Maybe at the end of that I will feel like I have achieved something.

What can you do today to change your thoughts and perspective a little?