Tell us your thoughts - What's kept or keeping you here?

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi everyone,

This is not an easy thread to make but I'm doing it because I think it's important.

I can see that you're all hurting and I know because I'm hurting too. Right now I'm in an easier place but it wasn't that long ago where I wasn't. Often we can find lots of reasons why we don't want to be here, and very few reasons that we do. So I'm making this post to bring everyone together to either find reasons to stay or show me why you've stayed. I don't care whether they are small or big reasons. They are reasons.

Please feel free to post below because I want to hear yours, and I want this to be a thread where people who come here can grab onto a reason too.

The reasons why I chose to stay -

- My dogs.

- Planning to die was very complicated.

- I wanted to hold on just in case things got a little bit better.

and now, I'm glad that I stayed. Please know that while suicide will end the pain, it will end your life too - so you'll say goodbye to any opportunities that things might get better. Opportunities for laughter, joy and beautiful memories. Sometimes it's about staying with the pain and finding other ways to let go of it without saying goodbye to our life.

[HappyHelper88]

In a good place now but whats keeping me here or kept me here?
My 12 months old French bulldog puppy....he looks like the dog in my Profile Picture

Hes the light of my life 🙂

[Learn to Fly]

Hi tumbleweed8,

Thank you for your post and welcome to the forum.

I am very sorry you feel like you have been put down by some people's talk. At times, words can cut deeper than knives, don't you think?

At the same time, I see so much strength in you: "I stay to prove them wrong. I stay so that one day, when I have a happy life, I will have the ability to shut those people out of it." This means guts. This means courage. This means inner strength. This means dignity. This means self-worth and self-respect. Keep it up, mate. Don't let them drive you to the very edge. They are simply not worth your health or life. They are just people. Bad people whom you have been unfortunate enough to come across. They come. But eventually, they go. And then you meet some other people, like us here, who will care about you and treat you with respect.

[Guest_1643]

I stay because of my faith in the universe.

My faith that my past abuse was not my fault and I can heal from it,

I stay because a stranger told me yesterday that we are all here for a reason and there is healing out there.

I stay because I am a tiny bit stronger than yesterday - so perhaps tomorrow I will experience even more strength?

I stay for my psychologist, my gp, and my psychiatrist who I ates for a bit but now appreciate...

I stay because things aren't black and white. Because I have gone through ugly things but that doesn't make me ugly, I habe witnessed awful brutality but I am not brutal, because, ultimately, I believe love wins.

[A2D2]

My daughter.

[white knight]

Hi tumbleweed,

Welcome to the forum.

I've picked up on your last comment "I stay to prove them wrong. I stay so that one day, when I have a happy life, I will have the ability to shut those people out of it."

"Ability" .. not being capable of keeping toxic people out of our lives can be troublesome and tormenting. I've had this state of mind in the past and I'd dwell on those peoples actions and comments. Since then I've developed some filters for self protection. It explained in one of my threads please google-

Beyondblue fortress of survival

I'd like to highlight that if someone's behaviour is so bad that it leads you to "suicide thoughts" then it could be better to consider regulating your contact frequency in order to distance yourself. With some people, particularly controlling or narcissistic types, offence can be felt but it's your life, you should have no guilt in such distancing.

You also stated you are not happy. Seeking happiness is no different than other aspects of our lives as it needs planning and strategies. A 1,2,5 and 10 years plan. Eg financial stability could be part of that plan as could seeking love, friendship and career aspirations.

Finally, by all means select a section from topic and start your own thread asking for opinions and guidance. We're here to help. With anonymity there is nothing to fear.

TonyWK

[Rats]

3 things keeping me alive today;

• My pet rats
• University
• Food

[Guest_4593]

Bad night

[Guest_4593]

How are we supposed to feel. When u only had a small network of people that u liked, trusted, that was supportive and kind. Then suddenly there gone and it's like, we were Colleagues not friends. I think I have Deluded myself into thinking I had anything more than a crap family and and just nice people at work..I think I just created myself friends.

[Deniz]

My sons and my cat.

[Guest_1643]

3 things keeping me alive today

My therapist

My conversation with casa helpline

nature and beautiful views, a promise of calm and hope